heartbreak.
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Saturday, July 26, 2008
1:51:00 PM
Yesterday, jeanna, kim, dan and I said a group prayer before the drama of history final performance.
We prayed for all glory to you no matter the outcome, for everyone to do their best and have fun, and to ignite a spark in each of us and thanked God for the opportunity of having this competition to bond the whole cast together.
Today, you asked to speak to me.
And you asked me how long it was since you heard my voice.
I didn't give you an answer.
You asked me what I was doing,
how my drama went,
and how I was.
You were so happy with the results.
You asked me how long my hair was,
and when I had a fringe, cos you saw the pictures.
I've had my fringe for really long.
That's how long I haven't seen you.
Ages.
You asked me if I loved you.
And you asked whether I wanted to see you.
And you were so happy when I said yes.
I told you I would go back during the holidays,
but..
all for love a savior gave, for only love could make a way.
I don't know what you are thinking; and I dont want to anymore/
((:
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Friday, July 25, 2008
9:45:00 PM
Okay, I haven't been here in like really long.
This week has been fun/ tiring/ demoralising/ realisation/ enlightening.
Cross country on monday was pretty fun. The zany green costumes were so colourful. and we had the best ah lian ever! And ah beng too. Zeohmygosh, the skit presentation was so hyper with the ah lians and ah bengs cheena- fying and the other people in the other races to show the dynamic singapore was so cool. Sella and siti looked so cute in their little boogie dance, and nabilah and her dancing.
The cross country itself was fun. Running three km along east coast is really the bomb. Like zeohmygosh freaking serious. The air there is so much different than running in tk. And there's this part of the route where the air is really salty. But apart from that, running/ rollerbalding there will be a great thing to do over weekends and holidays(:
And yay for three ee one, we championed in both the zany parade and cross country(: With kris and jeanna's planning and clarissa, jiahui, becky, grace, marg, jelene ran(: And we all got medals, heehee. And the trophies for top 10 were like all the same lah. So funny(: Clarissa's and mine were exactly the same as the first, lynette if I'm not wrong. They should have like given her something really big, cos she ran so fast! Woahhh.
After that was teachers races and other nonsense which were so fun. And there was no milo van. And everyone was so arghed. Yes, milo addicts worst news. Bleahhhs):
I can't remeber what happened on tuesday and wednesday. But yesterday was our olev filming take 1. The second part of our play was super emotion filled that quite a bit of people cried. But mrs crothers said the first part had no energy, sadly)):
But mama will make it. Yes, we will, yeah we will.
And today was the grand finals for the drama of history competition. Zeohmygsh, we were so worried for tech glitches, dance scene, transitions and like stressed. And make up was so horrifc. Not the results but the proccess.
Deepika was trying to get the robot effect so she coloured our lips like how a three year old child would to get the colour show. and she poked our eyes with the eye liner cos the make up seemed to have like died over not being used for so damn it long. But she entertains us while prodding us. ( hahahahhah!)
Anyways, we arrived there with our minimalism and were pretty freaked out with the other school's props. And you know what, we freaking zohmygoshly wonderfully lipsmackingly got champions.
Like yeah baby one two three with a kick on your ass(:
We were so damn it happy, we screamed like so much, and frightened the Raffles guys. HAHAH. And they were so sweet. They gave 3 cheers for tk, and we gave 3 cheers for RI. And judges like nis as SIA girl and rak as al and the said the ensemble was strong, like everything we needed to make our day.
And we won 3 thousand. Ooooh.
And stage make up is scary. Okay, I'm dead beat with 2 blue blacks on my thighs. Like ouch): Nights to the world.
Charmaine: I won;'t be there to send you off tomorrow, but thanks for all the sweet email, tabs and I will carry on exco and you can cheer from hk lah(: Have fun and we'll keep praying for you!
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Thursday, July 17, 2008
10:02:00 PM
Screwed bio/ lowest I ever got in my life for anything/ yes/ very badly done/ sprained wrist/ cuts on my leg/ don't bother asking why/ drama of history competition tomorrow/ jiayou category a/ and category b too/ I hope I won't screw up tomorrow/ stage entrances/ and exits/ making a baby science thing at vj with zingy and yim tomorrow/ and then home to slack/
stupid fucker is after me again. damn you.
baby, where are you? /
blahs/ blees/ blues):
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Saturday, July 12, 2008
7:21:00 PM
Okay, this week has been draining with me totally screwing up bio. Like I seriously promise-ly seriously think I'll get like 3/15. Zohmygosh):
But I managed to scrap through with the cheena test rather better than my expectations. But there's always those damn it pro-ish people, to whom congrats(: Anyways, drama on friday was so damn it a drama the wrong way session.
Back's breaking/ neck's not half moving the way it should/ and I'm dying slowly.
I did the Englsih compre shxt in the afternoon. Why are all the passages so boring? Darn, and summary will be worse. Did I mention that the emath test was easy though I screwed up the question on congruency shxt? And the for the english CA I wrote an argumentative siding how much handphones are useful to us.
Of course I wouldn't disagree right? Baby's the entertainment(: But my phone's screwed up on me. It doesn't slide completely. Like what the (not good words).
I'm scared to send it for repair cos zingy said it'll take like 2 months. I can't go without my phone for 2 hours, what more like 2 days/ weeks/ months?! Yes, I'm super dependable on my cell. And I like it that way.
Okay, shower/ dinner/ study/ mug/ slack/ mug time.
I don't wanna head for church early tomorrow. So doryy if you see this, hee(:
you were surprisingly there; thanks/
I'm so bored. spring me a surprise/
plants.ucks.
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Tuesday, July 08, 2008
10:36:00 PM
I've had a great weekend; but right now.
PLANTS.ARE.SUCH.HORRIBLE.THINGS.
Bio is so driving me crazy. It's so damn it boring. Like ohmygosh, totally sleeping pill material. Argh.
Things change./
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Friday, July 04, 2008
5:03:00 PM
Back from school(: Longgg weekend, baby!
It feels so good that the LONG weekend just started. School was bleah/ fun/ dopey.
Apparently Mrs Hoy is in Mexico. And she told 3e1 or something? But I have totally no recollection of that, and hey, I do pay attention okay? Like even if I'm not absorbing what she says, I still listen. But I have no memory of her telling us she's gonna fly overseas for a math conference or so I heard.
But having a free period is really nothing to complain about(: Grace and I came up with this spastic love lorn lovers poem cos the lit elect girls are doing some sort of poem related thing if I'm not wrong. so siti was trying to work out her poem. That's when me and grace<3>
Margo: "You shine like the shining sun for me!"
"Your lips pressing against mine!"
"You saliva flowing into mine?"
Siti: " Ohmygosh, no way!"
(So grace and I continued from where Margo left off)
Grace: "..and flow together to form a river!"
They next part followed as this:
Through meanders and rapids,
we'll still flow together.
And down we go like a waterfall,
and flow on and on.
Aren't we like so totally romantic? That is a question that'll never need answer my dear, don't think of answering it(:
Geog elect was so note taking(: I've had no life in geog from sec2 onwards cos miss foo wasn't our teacher anymore):): And she already left the school. Zomg, please. I hate thinking off how much megs and I loved her lessons.
COS I DON'T REALLY LIKE STUDYING, SO HAVING A LESSON I REALLY LIKED WITH A TEACHER I WOULDN'T MIND SCREAMING AT THE CLASS IS JUST SO RARE. I MISS MISS FOO):
But anyway, our new geog teacher is nice. Like she doesn't type out what's in the textbook and considers them as notes; but she really has nice pictures and info in her powerpoint slides. So geoh was really fun; megs, crystal and I had so much fun copying notes.
But EMath was horrible. I miss Mrs Taufiq. i think she should teach us. I don't get why we keep changing teachers. We've changed Emath, Chines, Geog already. The whole changing teachers thing is so annoying):
Recess was nap time. With Robyn singing click five songs and judy playing korean song from SHINee and Super Junior, it was nice sleeping(: Sleeping with music on is the best(: And to be honest, the songs from su-ju are really not bad; in fact their pretty catchy and happy and fun(: Just that I don't understand anything they're saying!
English was practice for oral for next week. Bio was err.. I read the textbook for once in the morning before class, and it was alright lah. I still don't like plants but it's not that bad(:
Drama of history and dance after school(: Dani and I went eat and her comments are so weird. She was telling me about her younger brother and his great obsession with miley cyrus and selena gomez. That's when she asked for my sister's (ray!) age. When I mention Ray was in primary 5, she said she knew that before and we thinking about match making them. And I was like WWWHHHHAAAATTT?!?!
(Pause) I'm really not sure how to react to that calmly. We went to read mags and we went to the toilet, sha after I came out, she started commenting on how short I take to pee?! Woah, she's one scary thing.
Ray's gonna wtach Tv with me, bye
mybestestprimaryschoolfriend; and tweety(:
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Thursday, July 03, 2008
10:34:00 PM
Fann and I bought metal box pencil cases earlier this year. We had this sudden childish reliving phase; so we bought tweety bird pencil cases. Hee(: I'm reliving that phase now.
I just showed it to my dad and he gave me this sour face! TSSSSKK.
Ilovetweety(:
I should go sleeep so I won't fall asleep in bio tomorrow. I really can't stand bio. Ah. I should change my attitude toward bio. But it's not working):
I'm playing disturbia again. Okay last run, and off to bed.
I'll not send myself into nostalgia mode; or plans will flop/
Hey darling(: I was pretty shocked to receive your text out of the blue. You are not a bad friend or whatever alright? Whoever told you that? i guess something thought provoking struck you? But hey, we've been so close since primary school, I miss you too! And I promise we will get back everything again alright? But for now, don't send yourself into nostalgic mode. It really kills by the second. And to what you asked me today; when I say yes, I'll always mean it(: take care<3
♥ 4:25:00 PM
I'm a lazy bum and I really don't wanna study anythingggg.
Amath was such a bummer to my sharon's- gonna- study- plan): Bio- chem SPA was pretty much of a killer. I was so bored. But I like copper sulphate crystals. I think the sec 2s had an experiment and they left their crystal to cool. OHMYGOSH, THEY WERE SO PRETTY. I LIKE, I LIKE(:
You have no idea how pleased I am right now. I've actually worked out everything for due time to come. And I'm not gonna have a melt down under situations for which I'm so wonderfully mentally prepared for. You'll just have to deal with it. And if you don't wanna, that makes one of us. I'm so gitting this down. Watch. I'm excited/
Alrighty, a lot of people have been asking me if I'm alright 'cos of my MSN nicks/ personal messages.
haaaiiiiyyaaaaa.
Sharon turned fifteen less than a month ago right? She can take care of herself lahhhh. I'm a big girl now(: But to everyone who asked; thank you(:
Rihanna's disturbia has been in my head since this morning. I gotta get it out of my system. I just played it 5 times consectutively. I need sleep. I love sleep. (:
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Wednesday, July 02, 2008
8:57:00 PM
It's mid week; and it's not untiring.
I've been so drained; but when you try to tell yourself you could go a little further and you succeed, it feels a tiny bit better. But today's AMath test was screwed. And my phobia of even trying out practice questions has just gotten worse. And elaboration of this, it not going to make me feel any better.
Today afternoon was at Mr Siow's. And I realised how scared I was in trying questions just to know I might get it wrong. But at Siow's, I got everything correct- and it was trigo. Pretty much shocked.
I'm struggling to find out answers to questions I want to know. You don't belong anymore. I have no time for you, and I think it's better like this/
Am i reverting):
