i'll miss you...

♥ Wednesday, April 30, 2008 10:13:00 PM

Hello.

I slept so much today. But I'm still sleepy. Terminal 3 tomorrow, but I'm not sure if I'm still interested to go. I feel piggy. I wanna sleep some more.

I'm such a pig.

^-.-^

No wait, that's a cat.

<0)))<

And that's a fish.

^-.-^ + <0)))< class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">BURRRRPP(:

That just reminded me of jovina ng shi yun and pearlyna koh shu rou. I think I miss meta. OH and congratulations to tabby for being elected as president in shss(: YAY(:

thebravestthingever

♥ 10:04:00 AM

Every blessing you pour out I'll turn back to praise

I'm in school now(: And I'm not supposed to be on blogger on online, but I am and I see some class people online too. Tsk tsk, we're so naughty(:

Ms Ho told pris on the bus that I did a lot better for chem mid years than last term(: And I didn't fail chem lasy year. YAY(: At least one of my sciences are not screwed up. But frankly, I can't be bothered with the mid years. That's so bleahhhh right now.

When the darkness closes in, Lord. Still I will say.

Zingie just said she tagged my blog. Hee(: Thanks. I know this might sound wrong to a certain extent, but sleeping on zingie is fun. Even kristen agrees! Yesterday's drama session for our mama group was really slack. So we were all sleeping with corthers doing pretty lights. Our studio is so gorgeous(:

Blessed be the name of the Lord. Blessed be Your name.

I'm really tired. But I'm not exactly doing anything, but still, I'm tired. I think jo is having her timed comprehension assisngment thign now. I prayed for you(: Jo is really high these few days. She's gone a bit crazy(:

Blessed be the name of the Lord. Blessed be Your glorious name.

We had this truth or dare/ what if/ who you rather session with becky, yimmy and zingie. It was so funny. Mmmm, sleeping in classrooms make me happy. It's so nice. And becky's love for the floor has spread to me. I think I love the floor now too(: Except for the fact that it mess up my hair):

That was the bravest thing i ever did, ig uess. But I'm not sure if it was for the best cause. I wonder how you interpreted it...

igotlostinpunggol.

♥ Sunday, April 27, 2008 8:06:00 PM

I'm so tired.

Let me see. I've got a lot of stuff to blog about. Hmm.

The exams were not really that okay for any subject. But, I know i totally screwed up chinese. MMM. Bad. Gotta clear my last paper. Drama. I've seriously no comment on that. No comment.

To all combines science girls: Study hard and tomorrow will be over(: GO GENNNN(:

To all 3e1 girls ( drama and econs.): Yeah, we know. We've got tha papers when everyone's at home. But we must kick major ass(: WE CAN DO ITTTTTT.

I went to terminal 3 yesterday. That's gonna be a hangout after the mid years are officially overrrr. That place is mesmerising. I found my all time favourite cartoon book calendar there. Charlie and Lola are nice(:

My mum totally flipped on me when she found out. I simply didn't know how to react. Worst of all, I gotta thrash it out later. Oh man. It doesn't look gooooooddd.

Morning study session only left me studying, because OTHER PEOPLE wouldn't study. TSK TSK. Service had lovely songs today. But I was so off- key. I miss secondary 2. That's all my heart could scream silently.

Lunched with jo and jo (vina and the anna!) Rushed down to punggol, got really lost on my own, but I had a great time.

Punggol is a nice place- that's after-mid-years=hangout-place#2! There's grass everywhere and you feel like sitting there all day, not forgetting the small mini LRTs. They make people smile and happy. At least I (sort of) know how to get there now.

Walking home in the cool evening is really therapeutic. Well, for me. I should do that everyday. And you should too. With the music on and buzzing in your ears, it's really great(:

Binny walking me to hougang interchange(: Thanksss(:

And I think I suck at directions. I need a map. But I think I'll need a map to go buy a map. Oh man, I suck at directions.

Blessed be the name of the Lord,
Blessed be your name.

I need to get my arse in the shower. I'll see you in the mid day spring time sunny afternoon.

we.did.itttttt.like.totally.

♥ Friday, April 25, 2008 9:21:00 PM

AAAhhhhh(:

I'm home. Well, I came long ago. And today was fun (After the chinese exam that is!)

But I can't blog about it. Oh wellies, I still had a super great time with my little percy piggy(: And we're so brave. YES. WE ARE. WE ARE. It's just that you don't know what evil we did on the sunny summer afternoon of 25 april 2008.

MUAHAHAHAH.

Okay, I'm high and I feel freakishly evil. I need to make some notes to myself.

1. Get to mini toons and buy house warming present.
2. Go for baptism retreat.
3. Use the alchohol thing tonight and tomorrow and sunday and remind percy piggy as well(:
4. Study drama breathe while doing so.
5. Bring my notes on sunday.
6. Bring the present on sunday.
7. Find out how to get to punggol by sunday mid afternoon latest.

What hurts the most, was being so close.

I'm gonna eat now, and watch percy pig's show on channel 8(:

Loves to world and everyone in world(:

P.S.
I l0ve you morgan,
if not for you,
I'd be so dead this week too.

icandoit.yeahhhhh.

♥ 9:47:00 AM

Okay, I'm in the tkg school library now. The chinese paper was so screwed for me. Like I totally didn't understand what was anything and everythign about. I should seriuosly start learning the language again): Oh mann..

I'm waiting for my percy piggieee noww. HCL girls have a 2 hour paper. I hope you're okay zigie and percy piggyyy and everyone else. Chinese is such a killer sometimes): I think I need tuition again. Arghhh.

But anyway, I'm so gonna slack today, today afternoon. I'm gonna do what I always wanted to do and i'm not caring about what anyone else says. I feel like a terrorist or something. But I feel so happy being so sneaky. Okay hush.

Oh, does anyone know what's wrong when the back of your eye balls feel like they're gonna blow up anytime and they feel like they're gonna fall of your face any moment? Please tell me if you do. My eyes are super pain. I need cure.

Off to my evil plan with my accomplice X)

go and stop being a chicken wickeny. you can do it sharon. rememeber, no screaming and no whining. BE BRAVE. HAIIIIIIIII-YAHHHHH!
*shows off muscles(which i so totally have okay?!)*

mybelovedrainbowloveeee.

♥ Thursday, April 24, 2008 9:52:00 PM

#18 jey-ohh-vee-aye-ann-ehh (: sent 21/4/2008 11:13 PM:
hello sunshine (:
#18 jey-ohh-vee-aye-ann-ehh (: sent 21/4/2008 11:13 PM:
i know its kinda hard for you to keep shining as the sun needs to rest to
#18 jey-ohh-vee-aye-ann-ehh (: sent 21/4/2008 11:14 PM:
if not, there is no need for night and day right?
#18 jey-ohh-vee-aye-ann-ehh (: sent 21/4/2008 11:14 PM:
yeah (i sudd find myself so philosophical) whatever
#18 jey-ohh-vee-aye-ann-ehh (: sent 21/4/2008 11:14 PM:
yeah you get my point
#18 jey-ohh-vee-aye-ann-ehh (: sent 21/4/2008 11:14 PM:
but after night, day comes again!
#18 jey-ohh-vee-aye-ann-ehh (: sent 21/4/2008 11:14 PM:
so its the same for you! after ur dark moments, you shine again
#18 jey-ohh-vee-aye-ann-ehh (: sent 21/4/2008 11:14 PM:
as brightly, evermore
#18 jey-ohh-vee-aye-ann-ehh (: sent 21/4/2008 11:15 PM:
and spread the light to others who are in darkness
#18 jey-ohh-vee-aye-ann-ehh (: sent 21/4/2008 11:15 PM:
spread the smile on ur face to those whose faces are smeared with tears
#18 jey-ohh-vee-aye-ann-ehh (: sent 21/4/2008 11:15 PM:
spread the warmth around to those who are being left alone
#18 jey-ohh-vee-aye-ann-ehh (: sent 21/4/2008 11:16 PM:
and bring life!
#18 jey-ohh-vee-aye-ann-ehh (: sent 21/4/2008 11:16 PM:
everyone appreciates the sun
#18 jey-ohh-vee-aye-ann-ehh (: sent 21/4/2008 11:16 PM:
everyone loves the sun
#18 jey-ohh-vee-aye-ann-ehh (: sent 21/4/2008 11:16 PM:
just like how you are loved by everyone
#18 jey-ohh-vee-aye-ann-ehh (: sent 21/4/2008 11:16 PM:
okay at least me! heh
#18 jey-ohh-vee-aye-ann-ehh (: sent 21/4/2008 11:17 PM:
so yeah promise me to keep shining and that day will always come after night okay?
#18 jey-ohh-vee-aye-ann-ehh (: sent 21/4/2008 11:17 PM:
loveyoualways, forwhoyouare (:
#18 jey-ohh-vee-aye-ann-ehh (: sent 21/4/2008 11:17 PM:
jiayou for midyears <3
#18 jey-ohh-vee-aye-ann-ehh (: sent 21/4/2008 11:18 PM:
*i started new month alr! yayyayyayyay (:

That's how I pulled through so far this week. She's so sweet(:

idontknowwhatswrongwithyou/me/andeverything.
strumatunetomakeitalright.

sunshine and rainbow love make the clouds swirl(:

♥ Saturday, April 19, 2008 11:20:00 PM

Went to dinner with everyone today(: The food was gooooood. yum(:

Thank you mummy and dad for taking us there. I guess I needed to get out of the house after burying myself in books, with my handphone that is. Hee.

I just finished that half of that huge portion of geog. Pretty proud of myself, though I could have done better. Mmm, waiting for someone to come online isn't the greatest thing ever with my eyes drying up. But I'm not wearing contacts, but my eyes are still drying.

I read your blog post. I guess I don't know what I should react. You told me what you posted online, but I simply didn't expect it. You were trying to change my perception of some stuff on friday night, and you took time out. Well, I don't know how to react to that, or your blog post. I know we you and I both miss lat time in certain ways. But we're just not gonna get back whatever we had last year. Things have changed. I have changed. In ways I don't exactly, but change is inevitable. If there's anything I've gotta ever say, I'm sorry for the change. And yes, I miss you too. And I guess I always will in my little way.

Ray went for scrabble competition today. And she won all 3 games(: She's sooooo smart. What a nice thing to be proud of, first competition and she won all 3 games(: Oh love, jie is really happy for you(: Keep playing well and take care of your poor runny nose. I turned off the air con tonight earlier so you won't feel so cold(: Hee. jie loves you <3!

I wanna go for the dog show next week(: But that'll be after the scary mid years): Oh man. Freaky.

Why is that that some people always know when your happy for no reason and also sad another moment?

Meta study sesison and cell and hopefully lunch too tomorrow(: I'm missing people(: a few more hours. <3>

I'm tired. Gonna snooze loves(:

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

♥ Friday, April 18, 2008 7:56:00 PM

We're gonna get into trouble on monday. And I'm so not looking forward to that. It's so god damn it annoying.

And I can't focus. I'm thinking about all the silly stuff i've gotta memorise and then throw away after the bloody mid years. I think zingie is right, maybe I am stressed.

I need to talk to you fannnnn.
I'm feeling zonky):
And I wanna study amath with you.
P.S. I'm sorry I texted you back after really long.
I dodn't feel the vibration and ms HOHOHOHO was walking around and yelling.
TYPICAL.HAHH(:

ithinkpeoplewhoarecowardlyaregoddamnit
loserswithtotallynolife
andtheyllneverfaceanythingcostheyre
gonnabechickens.alligottasaytoyouis
squawksquawkchickenyou.

I really must go studyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. NOW.

Nights loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

to all the sweet people who read my blog and all the small fonts, thank you for always asking if i'm okay, and if i'm tired or stressed. thanks to all those in tkg for hugs and lovely text messages(: to friends outside tkg, thanks for daily text messages too(: thanks for taking the time out to ask me if i'm alright.

some people can really tell when i'm not okay.

less space of my mind. what a great happy day today(:

♥ Tuesday, April 15, 2008 10:37:00 PM

Everyone's sleeping and I'm still up. I'm so proud of myself today. I did bio and I really, really studied. I think I've got most of the concepts in my head. And now I can finally sleep with great dreams (hopefully!)

I've been having lots of weird dreams lately. Thankfully I can't remember mosts. But I still know they were weird. i awoke at wee hours pondering about the stuff I had dreamt of.

When you suddenly wonder why you begin understanding AMath, enjoying your chemistry lessons and can finally get the concentration to sit down and focus on biology without touching your phone too often, you look up and wonder why. Then you rememeber those two lines you mumbled to God just before bedtime, and you realise everything. A smile across, and that changes everything.

Thank you God, it's really great to be your child and see the wonders you do.
Thank you for friends and family.
Thank you for yesterday, today, tomorrow and next week.

I'm gonna get some sleep for the night. Sleep early to all my nocturnal friends: kristen, zingie and fannnnnny and all those late sleepers all around- SLEEP EARLY(:

You're beginning to take up less space of my mind. And I'm really glad for that.

squawks to you, chicken.

♥ Monday, April 14, 2008 10:24:00 PM

The mid years seemed surprisingly alright. I really enjoyed social studies though it was really challenging to a certain extent, really influential.

Other than that, the day went really well. Bus rides with fann are really great. Opening, or raher trying to open chips and not exploding it, and talking about everything under the sun. She's really such a crapper who has really weird concepts of the world sometimes.

I owe people something..

Choices may not always be the easiet thing to make, but after we've made them, we gotta stick to them yeah? No matter how hard it get okay? I'm so glad you're feeling better now and yes, i promise you we'll go out in the holidays and study together and do all those spastic things once again okay? And I really really missed you too! But we'll still see each other and we can text too, so it's not that bad after all(: okay loves, take care and i'll pray for you(:and i know you like yellow(: specially for you!

hmmm.you too. Never mind about what happened. Right now, just focus on mid years now and we can think about all this later! AND NOT TO FORGET OUR HOLIDAY PLANS TOO. TUESDAY AFTER LAST PAPER. ( I nearly forgot!) but i remeber now(: Okay, I'll see you ins chool tomorrow then(:

My dad's really not into me going for the click five concert. Oh man. This is NOT NOT NOT NOT good): After waiting so long, oh I shan't start my rambling again. But it's the click five mannnnn.
Grrr. Someone's not happy.

I shall go sleep now.

Nites to mr teddy, zebra, julius, spongebob, furball, snawzy, piggy-whacker-thingy, morgan, rabbit ( All my beloved stuff toys all around the house!) and to everyone(:

squawks to you, chicken. no other comments.

♥ Sunday, April 13, 2008 10:49:00 PM

tired. really? yeah. maybe.
drained. really? yeah. a little.
sleepy. really? maybe not after what i just heard.
weirded out. really? TOTALLY. i mean like...okay, never mind.

we're gonna miss you at sea):

take that bow. go on.

immasleepy.

♥ Saturday, April 12, 2008 2:43:00 PM

Mmmm, afternoon(:

I just pent 3 hours doing nearly a chapter of geography. There is oh so so so so much to study. And I'm beginning to lose my attention. But 3 hours of finding a lot of reasons as to why forest are really important to people is really something that can make one cranky.

OH, AND I DON'T LIKE HAVING ADULT CELL AT MY HOME.

The guys are so darn it annoying. And they wouldn't go away even if you plead them to. They just crap aboput all crap available. And make you rrrrrrrrreal mad.

Other than that, this week has gone by really fast. I always used to find myself up in the morning, rushin through school, off to bed, and then up again.

It's the first time I've experienced such a fast week realising it. And it feels really weird. I used to really look forward to the weekends, especially sundays. (Not that I don't miss hanging out with META(: or anything, but still...)

I'm really drained. It's just like this video that plays on and on everyday. Cycles that repeat too many times, never let you catch your breath.

Let's stop for a minute please? I don't get my life, literally.

Okay, I'm in a daze again. Now for more world- forest relations.

Note to self:

Date with chocolate pocky (bottom cabinet in the kitchen!) and geography textbook <3

Then have fun in the shower.

Date my health policies and my socil studies first love <3

There is so much scacarsm in my self note. Oh boy. Gotta rush!

♥ Wednesday, April 09, 2008 4:11:00 PM

Jumping on a huge trampoline with a (completely retard!!!). I meant classmate. Squashed, pancake-d, and fell a million times.

Thank you Teng ZiYing(: I've seen the monster side of you.

Studyyyyyyyyy.

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i'm gone.

helplesslydistraught

♥ Sunday, April 06, 2008 10:16:00 PM

ihatethisfxckingshitanddon'ttellmeotherwisecosyou'llnotbehelping.everythingthat'smeanttobe,
isn'tgoingwell.andallthepeoplearegoingcrazywithoneanotherandit'salljustcrapcrapcrap.ineedtotalktoawallwithahear
tandearssothati'llfinallybeokayokayokay.that'sallieverwantedtobe.itthathelpedinanyway.

baby's home!

♥ Saturday, April 05, 2008 2:38:00 PM

Lunchies to everyone(:

Yesterday was a disappointing/ super fun/ super high/ realisation/ sweet/ coincidental/ thoughtful/ late/ belittle-ling day. Oh- four- oh- four- oh- eight!

Morning started off with me feeling really weird. I was in the bathroom for like longer than my usual tops staring into space. My mummy was asking me if I was okay when I realised I was super scared/ nervous for sports day.

Mum said I had butterflies in my tummy. And she had fun laughing at me >.< But I was too busy nibbling my breakfast to think of anything else.

Met fann and got to the stadium on time(: Bus rides talking about nothing to something back to nothing again with fann is really fun(: Best of all, I don't let her bully me like she used too. YAY!

Reached the stadium and had to report for even like practically immediately. And from there, there were even more butterflies. The event went really horribly. Comparing speed timing and placing, everything was so much better last time.

I'm sorry 3e1.

The later event of relay went so much better. Though we lost to someone we really didn't want to lose to, I guess we had a lot more fun? But jiahui, germaine, jerlene, huining, clarissa annd miranda did a really great job(:

Not to mention everyone else who took part in the novelty event(: It was so fun to watch you guys(:

Bus ride was with tresha(: you know what?

1. Both of us don't eat caramel.
2. We both don't like snickers and mars.
3. We both love kit kat and time out(:(:
4. And coke contains caramel.

Interesting!

Came home and had lunch with mummy. I just realised the last week day I was home for lunch was last year..in june probably? Not really a very enlightening thought.

Besides, I rushed down lunch and my bath. But I kinda failed in rushing my bath cos I kinda dozed off >.<

Rushed off to meet jeanna, zingie and kris(:

In our little outing, I met 10 people I knew. I saw grace-y, zhi jun, sarah and their friend at the tanah merah mrt. And after I met jeanna and kris there, we saw siaw ee, lisa, hidayah and aishah. And somewhere near bugis, I saw donn and xiao cheng. And after that, zingie, kris, jeanna and I met arra?!

So many people in just a few hours. But yesterday was really fun.

We went to places we probably never visited before. Walking around to find materials we needed in really weird places. But i think the concourse is a really nice place to hang around(:

We reached the esplanade way before than we need to. And exploring there is really fun. Well, at least not as mundane as I thought it to me at least. Not to mention with our beloved photographer (whom I'm a great fan of by the way!) was taking precious shots with her baby ernie(:

The show was pretty good. Well, yeo yann yann can act really well. And marvelling at the way she interacts with people she's never met before is really interesting. And I learnt abit of malay.But my tummy growled really loudly in one of the silent moments which sent the 3 of them into fits.

Well, I can't control my tummy okay!? Besides, it was not that funny. Was it?

But the concept of the show being bilingual was really interesting. With our new found inspiration, our play would probably now take a level up(:

Mrt-ed back with jeanna and zingie. And they kept laughing. There was this group of guys who said that sitting on MRt trains were for the mentally unstable, and that moment zingie just sat down!

Hilarious.

Anyway, the long day ended.

Happy birthday xinyun(: you are my thang too!
(Birthday girl is crazy at certain times, really!)

Oh and good news!!

baby came back home today. and baby was a little hurt-physically. poor poor baby.

Okay, I really ought to go study now. Mid years are approaching, and my brain still hasn't been filled with all the stuff I need to know. Oh gosh.

With disbelief,
I continue wondering.
Am I supposed to be happy?

This is all way too weird.

♥ Thursday, April 03, 2008 8:52:00 PM

Today was rather okay. It's not the greatest day ever.

I probably can't believe anything that happened when I found out about it yesterday. I just don't believe you did that.

But drama was rather like how it was in sec 2 for once. I miss all those drama exercises that would make us all laugh till our tummies ached real bad. Focus walk, improv exercises, and all thoses games? Coin game, space invasion. I miss all that.

Well, I really didn't expect it, but telling myself that repeatedly just isn't getting anything done. In the midst of trying to get sorted what I'm headint at now, a part of my says to just let go and really forget.

I miss our old DEP class. Ying bin, amanda, elsa, bong, jas and Mrs Lim. So many missing pieces, and focusing solely on the O levs makes me miss last year even more. Come back 2007.

I'm really considering everything I'm thinking right now. Staring the the monitor with a face of someone that creates wave lines across the shores. So what am I supposed to do now?

Tomorrow's sports day doesn't really seem that fun anymore. Running double events with fann, marg, huining, jiahui, xinyun jiaying and clarissa if I'm not wrong. Running 100m twice as individual and relay doesn't seem appealing either.

I don't know.

And 3e1's clas tee is really over- sized for practically everyone. Last year, I ordered XS, and it was so huge. This year, not knowing that it's from the same printing agent, and I ordered S. Oh gosh. Thankfully clarissa, becky and amelia told me to change to S, or I'd realy be wearing a dress tomorrow to run.

Oh my. I just found out how things really went! YOU REALLY DIDN'T DO WHAT THEY SAY YOU DID. Oh, I'm so happy(:

Meeting fann at interchange tomorrow. And I so can't wait to watch the play tomorrow(: It seems really cool reading it from the newspaper. But I'm really for saturday the most.

I simply can't be bothered with you of all people. Like who does what you do? Probably only you. It's so annoying to sometimes realise that.

saturday = rest / sleep/ studying (a little!)/ babywillbehome(:

whatever.

Nites love, sweet dreams to everyone(:

♥ Wednesday, April 02, 2008 9:21:00 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JO(:

They tore the paper doll.
They ripped her paper heart.

She pieced it back,
with all the glue she could find.

But,
They ripped it again.

Now, there's no more glue.
So there'll be no more paper heart.

And no more paper doll.

i'm an april fool

♥ Tuesday, April 01, 2008 5:44:00 PM

Hellos(:

Happy april fool's!

I fell for so much nonsense since last night. I belived it when marg said that mas selamat was caught in some deserted mosque and that she was moving to london(?!) I still can't believed I actually believed her): But I realised it within a minute, so it was still okay(:

I'm not listing the other thinga I fell for(: And the chinese CA didn't go down that badly, thankfully(: But still, with that killer subject, I'd rather play safe. I'm gonna be a good girl and study tonight. Then hopefully my mid year marks won't be as horrible as last term's):

Amath surds, log.
Emath revision as a general.
Especially similarity.
Chemistry covalent and metallic bonding.
Biology enzymes and digestion.
(Find out whatever that has been going on in SS- totally lost!)
Geography!
Drama memorising of lines
Research on Lady windermere
Costume research

Okay, that's a ~~hell~~ lot of work!

I can't believe it's been so long. Yeah, she does have a point. So did that magazines. And all those quotes from everywhere. But I still don't want to do anything about everything. I'd rather have it like this for as logn as possible than have things change.