♥Sharon alice joseph
♥TKGian
♥drama
♥DEP
♥CCR
♥HOF youth:)
♥metamorphosis
♥sherrylovetkgs@gmail.com
♥sharon-alice-joseph@hotmail.com
♥wishlist
♥ THAT TEDDY AT ESCAPE(:(:
♥pink vaio
♥new phone W910i(:
♥red ipod
♥green long sleeved tee
♥blue long sleeved tee
♥black long sleeved tee
♥LBD
♥sandals[OBS]
♥black skinnies
♥grey skinnies
♥new pumps
♥new flops
♥nail protector polish
♥another black tote
♥a new wallet
♥goals and dreams
♥get an average overall of B3 for 2008
♥get merit for grade 5
♥wash my converse shoes
♥wash my converse white bag
♥survive OBS
♥meet the click five(one chance is enough wasted!)
♥complete watching 微笑Pasta
♥complete watching 公主小妹
♥complete watching 東方茱麗葉
♥watch 花ざかりの君たちへ 2
♥really understand the html codes to make a blog
♥create my own blogskin
♥skydive
♥bungee jump
♥go ice skating
What do you do when you wake up? Peel off the blankie
Do you drink coffee? Nope. In fact, never.
Do you clean your house? Nope.
If so,then what room is the easiest room to clean? -
Whats the hardest room? -
Do you have siblings? Yes
If so,how many? One
What are their names? Rachel Mary Joseph
Do you like your siblings? She's okay, I guess.
Do you get along with your parents? Depends, but not really. I'd rather be on my own
Do you bond with them? No. It's not my kind of thing.
How many pets do you have? One
What kind of pets do you have? A terrapin
Which pet is your favorite? I always wanted a golden retriever
School life
Do you go to high school,middle school,or college? High school
What is your favorite class? English, Literature, Geography, Drama and probably, Physical Ed.
do you have 6th period? I guess so...
Who do you hang out with the most in school? Fon:)
Who's locker are you next to? We don't have lockers on school: we just shove the books under our tables..
Do you have any of your friends in your classes? yes, our school isn't home room concept.
Do you take the bus or do you get driven? Get driven by dad, then by the school bus driver, and then the public driver.
If you take the bus,where do you sit usually? on bus 10:Near the back, left side
Are there labeled groups in your school? Yup.
If so,what group label is yours? I don't cliques, so you won't find me in one.
Do you get detention often? Never, but I always wanted to...
Have you ever been in a food fight during lunch? Nope, why waste the food right?
Do you hate your teachers? Nope. I just don't like the way Maggie Goh struts around.
Are you an honors student? No where near there.
Social life
Whats your favorite place to hang out at? It the people that make the difference. So anywhere like the mall or video world will do.
Do you go to the mall often? Yes, of course:)
Are you on the computer 24/7? In the holidays, yes
Are you on the phone 24/7? Nope, my mum will kill me
Do you go to parties often? Nope
What are your hobbies? Blogging. Writing stuff. Watching dramas[chinese]. Doodling. Drawing. Snoozing. Lazing about. Surfing the net. MSNing. Getting in touch, with me...
Whats your favorite hobby? Mood oriented. But I love blogging:)
Are you good at it? (Laughs) People don't really get what I'm trying to say.
Do you listen to music often? Yes:)
you have AIM? Nope, MSN
If so,whats ursn? -
Do you gossip That's part of everyone. Yes
Do you care more about your social life more than you do about school? I don't know. No comment
Do you mostly socialize with your friends? I guess so.
Friendship life? Who is your best friend? Jasmine.
Which friend calls you the most? Right now...(I'm not mentioning...)
Which friend IMs you the most? Fon:)
Which friend understand you the most out of all ur friends? Well, it's different...
Which friend is funniest? Their a trio: jo.juan.ting meggs and fon make me laugh too... jas too...
Which friend is quiet? errr..the quietest friend I had would be viv..
Which friend has a temper? Everyone has a temper..besides, people change...
Which friend is the girliest? Well, Ziying I guess. And that's a compliment:)
Which friend cheers you up the most? Well, Jas. Meggs does too.
Which friend has the lowest self-esteem? Such things aren't to be compared. Everyone is unique.
Which friend is honest? It really from different view points
Which friend holds a grudge for a while? Everyone does. It's just that some hold on to it longer...
Which friend is flirtly? Xavier
Which friend is the loudest? This is a compliment. Deep makes drama fun.
Love life
Do you have a bf/gf? Nope
If so,whats their name? -
If not,are you crushin? yes:)
Do you believe in love? Yes, that's what makes the world go round
Do you believe in love at first sight? Yes, but not at this age, rarely.
Do you fall for ppl because of their looks? It's not something to be proud of. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder:)
Do you hook up with ppl on the internet? Nope. I think that's scary...
How many bfs/gfs have you had in your entire life? I've been single all the way
Have you ever had your heart broken? A couple of million times..
Have you broken a heart? Yeah, I didn't mean too..
Have you been cheated on? Tricked into more rather...
Have you cheated? I guess in spelling
Do you think sex matters more? NOPE!...
Have you ever made out? NOPE!...
Image life
What color is your hair? Dark brown
What color are your eyes? Dark brown
What kind of clothes do you wear? Clothes that fit me
Do you wear make-up? Nope..
Are you punk? Nope...
Are you preppy? Maybe on the outside, but not on the inside
Are you gangster? Nope..
Are you goth? Nope...
Are you a jock? Nope..
Are you a nerd? I wish i was study material...
Are a head banger? Nope...
Whats your nationality? I'm Indian...
Do you have small or big eyes? Relatively big(That's what jas says at least...)
Are you a girl or a boy? girl
Personality life.
Do you think your nice? Depending, I guess.
Do you have a bad temper? Depending.
Are you helpful? Usually
Are you depressed often? Lately, yes.
Do you have attitude? Depending
Do you get along with a lot of people? I can talk to them at least...
Do you hate a lot of people? Nope.
Are you flirty? Not at all.
Do you have an ego? Everyone does.
Do you pick on people you don't know? No, that's very bitchy.
Would take a bullet for the people you love? Yes, I love them.
♥ 10:17:00 AM
After sleeping the whole of the afternoon, ("SHERRRYYYY....stop being a log....Get up, get up"), I realised I couldn't sleep at night. Listening to the muttons was the best thing I did yesterday.
Muttons never failt to cheer me up. With the lamest of the lamest jokes, their cracy and nutty acts seem to make you forget all the shit you can be in. Baby mutton was apparently knocked over, with the tesing of his height, and the car's, and animal mutton was called in as a replacement. The animal being, monkey mutton. Their usual game of guessing the lyrics began. Ang guess what song it was????
The beginning of Katherine Mcphee's Lovestory. (I'm not sure how many of you can understnad what I'm trying to convey, but IT WWAS FUNNY!) It ticled me big time.
And as they continued airing the show, different songs, of extreme differences, brought about a wide range of emotions, and people too.
And I'll still sat this, Kyle's voice has a powerful way of clearing thoughts, for me.(Now Click five music plays...)
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The taste was horrible. How can anybody invent such a taste for tooth paste? It tasted like a combination of the hospital atmosphere, and weird fruits. So, COLGATE ALL THE WAY!
Having two elderly folks seemed like a long and tedious, not to mention boring, home life. But, that's a wrong concept.
She walks around the house and makes me laugh. Pounding the tablets, scurrying to get the syringes, back and forth. As she cries out every night for her husband, she's so strong even at the age of 81.
He's weaker, but he tries. As he co- operates with the hospital staff, you see how much he tries. And that shakes you. When you ask him if he's cold, he'll reply in complete sentences. He tries, hard.
She takes care of him, all the time. Though phyically not thatt strong due to age, he still tries, for him. Their love so strong. It's amazing...
All those songs, some brought back memories, of you. And I continued. But, I tensed up so easily. I couldn't understand why. When you're beside me, it ain't like that, but last night...
Holidays make me feel so lazy. I don't even feel like moving to another room... What a lazy ass..
I miss reading VK...
♥
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
8:10:00 PM
Ms Lim just called me, saying that there'll be a DEP camp in the coming holidays. I'm not sure what my reactions to that are, though I did try to sound happy on the phone. I guess I did succeed. Oh, I don't know.
Ms Lim's leaving DEP. She says she lacks the confidence. I'll miss her.
31st-CHECK -UP
5th to 7th-DEP
13th to 16th-YOUTH CAMP:)
Good. That's perfect for friend-to-friend plans.
Promises are meant to be kept. I promised we'll go out:) So, we will, okay?
"CAN YOU EAT?! GOING ON DIETS ARE BAD. YOU SEE, TO SPELL THE WORD, YOU MUST SPELL DIE FIRST. SO, IT'S BAD!"
"WHHHAT? WHAT DID MDM RAUDHAH SAY?"
"SHHHAAARRRROOONNNNN...GOT TRAINING TODAY...."
"HELLO SHARON, WILL YOU MISS ME NEXT YEAR?''
"WANNA HEAR OR NEW SONG?"
(Laughs) Thinking of you guys reminded me of what you always tell me. I miss you guys...
♥ 11:50:00 AM
It's really shocking how many people find themselves getting to be more of a loner. As they tell me I wonder, why?
I always thought it was good to have a little time to yourself...well, isn't it?
I like being alone at home...my grandparents hardly check on it. And are resting mostly, so there's peace. I like it, somehow. I just ask, why not?
I know you'll ask me why we're drifting part? So I'm telling you, before we do, I want to. Yes, I want to drift away. Drift away, from you, and everybody else. Perhaps only grow spiritually. And my reason, you know. I'm scared of getting hurt. I don't care what people are going to think of me. Why should I?
And you ask me about next year? You ask me if I'll not make friends as a choice. Well, I know you'll hate my answer, but, I might. Why get into cliques and then make others feel awkward. You know I hate cliques(with the proper definition). So yes. But at least you comfort yourself, saying that there are people I know there.
And I laughed inwardly.But I didn't tell you why.
I'm not like them. I'm not not part of them. Somehow, I refuse to know them deeper. I guess, time might heal. I'm not depending on anybody for happiness now. I'm not depending on you anymore either. I know I'll hurt you this way. But it's better I come clean, than you find out for yourself. In anyway, I'll be okay. I'll still tell you what's happening, nut maybe, not my feelings and thoughts. I know I used to do that, but I guess, I should stop. It's not that I don't trust you with my feelings and thoughts. I don't trust myself. So don't ask for my opinions anymore, like you always do. I'll miss all the memories, all of them.
But, we've got to let go. This time, it's because of me, I hop there won;t be a next time.
I'll miss you, I'm sorry.
♥ 9:58:00 AM
I miss going to school and talking to sharon. its fun to talk abt personal things to someone who doesnt draw conclusions from whatever you say:) hee no offence to other people i talk to. now i feel like talking to someone and telling them that i dont want to talk to anyone hurhurhur. wouldnt that be funny. hmm now im really not in the mood to blog byebye
That's a part from megs' blog...
Yes, talking about personal things, that was the best. She always listened and let me finish. And we LOVED to gossip talk about the person we hate dislike to an extreme. Anger and frustrations, (laughs), it was so dunny how we actually expressed our feelings. Slamming the table, suffocating the poor stressball to bits, it was funny...
I'll miss talking to you too...
Thanks for listening to all my whinings (though YOUR whinings were worse) and for all that assurance:)
I awoke to something better Why not the simple life? Though that's not what the world wants, must you want the same?
I've now a part to help. And I'm surprised I'm happy about it. I'm not really sure why. But at least, I'm happy.
I've figured that depending on people, is not the best thing you'd do in your life. Why lean on someone, another player?
Depend on you yourself If you lean, what'll happen when their gone?
What happens when you dream?
Dreaming elevates your fantasies And when everything gets stuck You'll be the one disappointed And you're dreams are the cause
If you don't hope, and don't expect, You'll never be disappointed Never
Stop dreaming. You'll kill yourself at this rate.
Thing got a litlle messed up though, but everything will pull through.
Nasal tubes are out The male nurse flies in, to save and the fixing is done.
Sanctuary - City Harvest Church
When my world was in darkness You spoke Your word, night turned into day Your beauty filled this place
When my world stood in silence You filled my heart with songs that never end Forever I will praise To think that the universe Could not withold Your glory You choose to live in me Im so amazed
And I worship You Lord My life in You restored Here is my heart Make it Your sanctuary For nobody else But Jesus only You
You, are faithful and true Glorious Lord All my life, it is You I adore You touched my soul Completed my world I surrender to You
♥
Monday, October 29, 2007
8:08:00 PM
I'm getting tired of you pushing me 'round Dragging me down Making a sound because you wanna I guess that's why I like messing with you Putting you through A lesson or two, because I'm gonna Before I go my own way
I just gotta say Leave mealone Get out of my face I'm tired of love Feeling so misplaced Time for you to go 'Cause I know I'm better off on my own, oh Leave me alone
This isn't gonna work Don't call me on the phone Because I'm all out of words I'll face the unknown Thinking about all the ways that I've grown
Oh, Leave me alone There was the time I thought you were the one Having some fun Getting it done What an illusion 'Cause you were trying to take control of me That couldn't be, I need to be free of this confusion Don't give me a guilt trip, because I'm so over it
Leave me alone Get out of my face I'm tired of love Feeling so misplaced Time for you to go 'Cause I know I'm better off on my own, oh
Leave me alone This isn't gonna work Don't call me on the phone Because I'm all out of words I'll face the unknown Thinking about all the ways that I've grown Oh, leave me alone Don't turn around and don't look back I see right through all your selfless acts
Leave me alone Get out of my face I'm tired of love Feeling so misplaced Time for you to go 'Cause I know I'm better off on my own, oh Leave me alone This isn't gonna work Don't call me on the phone Because I'm all out of words I'll face the unknown Thinking about all the ways that I've grown Oh, leave me alone
If you win your love I'll feel better on my own
Leave me alone
Go away. Why must you keep interfering? Didn't I tell you that I don't want to talk to you? What can't you just stop demoralising everyone? If you are stressed up, stop expecting me to do anything about that. Just leave me to be, what's the worst that can happen anyway? I'll tell you. The worst is that I'll just clam up and refuse to open to anyone. Is that what I want? I've already started to close up. I'll just be something that you'll probably hate. Stop pushing me to the wall. Go mind your own shit.You've already done things that are unchangeable. And I'll never get all those back. All because of you. Don't make me hate you. Just stop interfering. Stop interacting with me. I don't want to have anything personal to do with you. Why can't you be like others? LEAVE ME ALONE. Things won't go your way anyway. I'm an individual myself, with my own personal thoughts and feelings. I have my emotions too okay?! Just because I seem to go with the flow, doesn't mean I won't stand up for myself. I will. At least now...
It's really amazing how I can actually like a fictional character so much. So much so to the extent that I compare real people to fictional characters. Finally, I know why. It is indeed wonderful to like a fictional character.
I guess the reason varies from person to person. For me, I've found my reason, gladly. It's all so interesting...
kaname kuran:)
♥ 4:48:00 PM
Today was rather a stress- free day.
We were supposed to shop, but instead, we ended up walking for miles from one place to another. The food was good. Tired people, are not fun to go out with. [haha:)]
Passing by shops and streets and people wwas something I sshould have done long ago. It was pretty refreshing. I guess I'll go walk around places sometime place. However, I guess this only works when you are in unfamiliar surroundings, sadly.
TJC has a rather nice campus, but scary looking teachers. But all was cool.
Hanis suprisingly tagged. Considering how much she hates blog surfing, it was pretty nice. Thanks:)
The ways that I express anger, and frustrations, are really one of kind. Last night's conversation really got into me, and remained there.
My first reaction to someone who has upset me is actually to ignore them blatantly. Somehow, this is my first and most instant reaction. I've tried stopping that, but I guess, what's in you, really stays in you.
Ignoring their questions and text messages follow, accompanied with silent glares. All this seem pretty mean to me, however, I'm the one doing it.
Releasing my anger, is one way that I laugh at myself the next day. I'll delete that person's contact and text messages. And after that, I'll forget slowly.
My ways are really amazingly silly, but I'm gald it works. [Hahaha....] I really feel so silly.
Anger management, what fun!
It's really amazing how people can have crushes on people they've never talked to, at least directly. Everything's just based one looks, making everything more shallow than it already is. Why does this happen to people? It really intrigues me, and causes me to feel all whoo-sy. It's amazingly sad .
Did you really? You yourself dont know? Why is that?
♥
Sunday, October 28, 2007
10:02:00 PM
I really don't understand why all this is happening to me?
Why an I in this family? Why not somewhere else? Why are the people in my life anyway? All they seem to do is to agonize and cause more trouble for me. Why must I bear with all this? It is not my fault that I'm here. Why be in a place where you can't appreciate, nor be appreciated?
An unexamined life is not worth living- Socrates
I somehow seem to laugh at that, even at this point. I've examined my life, day in, day out. All that examining seem to have gone to making me hate my life, and the people around me.
Why am I to care if other people are getting hurt? If I can get hurt, why can't they? But till today, whatever I feel, I've never really carried out. And that fact, in debts me, to no one, but myself.
That feeling of guilt and anger to your own self hurts more than anything, at least now. Why can't I just do what I really want to?
I said I'll be going for the showcase at any cost. But did I? Did I? I simply didn't. I actually put some one's worry in front of that. I actually considered someone else' feelings befre mine, despite wanting to go so badly.
Looking back, with tears and so much anger, I really regret that. This meant more than the showcase itself to me, I realised I never ever stood up for what I really wanted. I only knew it. So, what isthe point? I'm not happy, not at all.
I said I'll skip going to main service. I really want to. But what did I do in the end? I went. There again, I actually, did what I didn't want to...
Feeling so hopeless, all I do is just tell myself what I want, never really doing it...
Why can't you just do it?What the hell is wrong with you?
Think, is this what you really want?
Is this your life, or are you just puppeting it with some god forsaken script?
Think it through, and then decide
Do your best, whatever you do.
♥ 7:01:00 PM
Sharon
Blog extract: "bern:) hey. i'll miss you alot. thanks for the many memories:) VJC your dream and now everything's come true and i'm happy for you. very:) study hard andGod bless you:)
i'll keep my promises i really will:) i bet you'll lose our little bet make good choices like always
Heyyy! It's been great having you as a classmate and dear friend. I will miss going home on bus 10 with you, listening to you talk and just crapping a lot! I know we've had petty arguments, but I really appreciate you as a friend. And I will win our bet yes! A four-year long one haha! Oh well. Take care in TK alrights, will miss you loads. I love you SHARON ALICE JOSEPH.
That's was from bern's blog:) She's so sweet. And once I again I say, I'LL MISS YOU TOO GIRL! Thanks for that dedication. Appreciated greatly:)
Church was forcefully strong by the will of my dad. Youth was cool. Worship was good. Desmond led today. Everything would have been perfect, if not for the temperature.
I guess the whole idea of asking the youth to the front did NOT work out greatly for me. It was pretty squished up and all, somehow causing the temperature to rise drastically. All that cramped space and heat got into my brain- literally.
I had a horrible headache:( And it was difficult to soothe it, the electrics were way awesome, but the drums were bit too loud for my head. I guess all those worsened it, sadly. In other words, worship was not with much concentration. However, I did try.
There was also another tiny distraction. [Not elaborating] However, I think I fared pretty well, considering myself as an individual, and as...me:)
The sermon topic, for once, interested me. Topic being: BLOGGING WITH GOD.
I found the topic very cool, and thus, paid extra attention.[Excluding the occasional glances away:)]
However, I want to keep my experience to myself:) Try checking out jas' blog for in depth...
Lunch went fine with many sneers, speculations and other forms of nonsense.
Details:
pearlyna
She was extremely displeased with the size of the spoon. Trying her best to fit it in her mouth, she finally succeeded, not without a "complimant from jo", "like that means you got big mouth!"
Jovina
Producer of loud, smelly burps:(
Cheryl
She"playfully" added 1/8 of the chilli flakes into each of out soups bowls:( thanks ALOT!
Tabitha
She let out a secret!
Jasmine
As usual: Talking with mouth full, craking lame jokes, making weird noises... LIM PEH GA LI GONG AR?!
Joanna
Choked on alot of unknown gossips, sending fits of laughter:)
That basically sumarised lunch, oh yes, Xavier and his friend dropped by too. And left after questioning frome cell leader, Joanna:) Nice one!
I hope I'll be given the permission to leave home to bugis, dad is really holding tight reigns. And you know what, its getting into me...
It's not that I want to scream out my views, but I guess its fair to let me have a say too right? You said you'd try too, I hope you will. And the whole click five issue, I guess its not your fault entirely. Give me a bit more time, I need space too...
Have you ever tried forgetting something badly? I doubt it was easy.
Have you tried forgiving yourself for doing something you believed in strongly? I doubt it was easy.
Have you ever tried running away from reality? And realised that where ever you go, you'd always face the same wall of reality? I doubt it was easy.
You never wanted to go against your own personal set of rules,
So when you did,
You took it down too hard.
Yes, you are trying.
But it does not seem to be working.
So, stop trying.
Its not called giving up,
Its called,
Letting yourself off your own hook.
Try to forget it,
Things will be better soon.
Just believe.
And you know what?
If you do,
Things might turn out better.
So just try.
It'll help.
Remember what your best friend told you,
That'll help,
alot.
♥
Saturday, October 27, 2007
12:06:00 PM
The morning whizzed by. Everyone's got stuff to settle. Everyone but me:) And that sort of feels good. Only that, I can't seem to find a book that I really can...read.
Well, yes. I can't find a book that I really want to read. I've always looked out for this book that I read when I was younger. It was a teenage book dumped off at the children's section, which i picked up and borrowed.
The book was about this Afghan girl who was separated from her family during war. And her journey. I can't really remember the rest of the plot. However, I know that is not a stereotypical book. And somehow, for some reason, I'm really attached to that book, remembering only the front cover.
It was the face of the girl. She had the head gear that seems to resemble a tudung, and it was light green. With a darker shade of green in the background, the book appears so peaceful and soothing to the eye. But when the reader looks deeper into the book, realisation dawns that there's more than what meets the eye. I can still clearly remember that the girl's eyes conveyed a lot. But, that's all from my memory that I can recall.
So if anyone finds a book that has a similar cover and storyline, please do let me know:)
I was reading my previous posts a while ago, I figured out somethings. It was actually a very interesting thing to do-looking at all your feelings.
Its amazing how you see yourself growing out of things you thought you'd never grow out of. And when you see yourself struggling with things from so long ago, it hurts. Worst of all, what can be done, have already be done. And now you just have to let time take it away. But its been so long. So, why haven't they disappeared?
...you'll probably never know...
(I absorb situations at different paces. So that's why I'm feeling this way now.)
I was thinking through my past 2 years with my classmates. And I realised a lot. The friends that I've made, the relations, were never clear. People I thought that I was close to, were actually closer to me, closer than I thought. I've never felt this way before.
All the jokes told, all the stories, I'll remember. And when you cried, I was shocked. I didn't tell you that. But, I'm shocked. And now I realise why. I don't really know how to express this feeling, but, I'll miss you. I really, really will.
People may appear strong, like you. But yesterday, you opened up.
I always thought you never really treasured friendship, but enjoyed it. I realised it was all wrong. You really treasure your friends.
Being close to you for 2 years, I never thought things would be the way things are. And I'm glad things are the way they are.
Next year, we'll not be in the same class, but I'll shout to you from class to class. And I'll continue to message you, and chat with you. I promised you. And yes, like I promised, I won't forget you.
I'll miss eating noodles with you.
And I'll miss fighting over who should but the utensils back.
And I'll miss drinking sago and "perfume" drink with you.
I'll never forget eating "acids" with you.
I'll miss swinging with you on the TK swing, and getting dizzy all the way.
I'll miss sitting in the court yard.
I'll miss getting scolded (maybe not that, and the whacking and smacking...PAIN!)
I'll miss you:)
Now for some fresh air. But before I forget,
HAPPY 81ST BIRTHDAY GRANDMA!
Going out with mummy to get the birthday cake and all. I'm still talking my dad into getting a VAMPIRE KNIGHT comic. [My dad can't stand that time of comics, and worst of all, the contents of vampires. But, he doesn't know that I love Kaname's character:) Thank God, I must say...] I'll going to try again, wish me the best of luck!
ps. breakfast was wonderful today!
:)!
♥
Friday, October 26, 2007
6:03:00 PM
I changed the skin gain. This time, I think it'll last longer. I always believed thought(and still do) that a persons blog reflects the person. And so, I feel,and think, that this seems to be the best. So yes, I'll stick to it for a little longer this time:)
Oh yes, the show has no connection though. It's just that the beat is catchy. Besides, the lyrics are pretty meaningful. So that's the reason behind the chosen song, Face Down by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.
I still want to the real scene behind what's currently happening. Why is it that sometimes you're so jittery, and then so confident the next? I know ther's something not right, something that's gotta do with me. However, only you and your best friend and probably, others know. That seems pretty evident to me.
I'd rather not suspect. But if it is true, then, I don't know what comes next. I really don't know. I just know that i don't want to be obliged. I really don't. It took me long to get out of the rut, and I'm not going back there. I can't afford to.
But if it's not true, then, why are you acting so weird? Getting someone else to convey does not seem like you... or maybe, i don't know you well enough. If that's the case, I'll be relieved.
However, I have a stronger feeling of the earlier case. That's how i feel. But I don't really know. And I'm not really sure how I find out. I guess I'm just going to keep observing and looking out. I don't know. I really don't.
All I know, is that, ther's something I don't know that concerns me, involving you. That's all I know. Now, it just depends on the intensity of the situation.
This all sounds so somplicating and complex. I hope you don't exacly read this. Though there is a high chance you will. Well, I don't know.
But I do want to know.
That's if you're willing to tell.
If.
Two letters, powerful effect.
If.
♥ 3:24:00 PM
Today was a sad day for many. But we'll all get over it (soon, hopefully).
This is a tribute to my 2e1 buddies:)
(they are in no order but in registration: to be nice)
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bern:) hey. i'll miss you alot. thanks for the many memories:) VJC your dream and now everything's come true and i'm happy for you. very:) study hard and God bless you:) i'll keep my promises i really will:) i bet you'll lose our little bet make good choices like always
fon:) my bestie in 2e1 jia you for the combi all will be well:) and i'll miss you thanks for the many memories and for cheering me up especially that day(stupid chinese) and thanks for crying for me:) i'll never forget that:) i'll always remember the funny stories- flying sauce plate! disco in the room! and your "favourite" person! i'll miss staying out with you at the courtyard i'll remember you:) thanks:) don't ever cry again:) thanks for crying for me its was really sweet i'll NEVER forget that! p.s. i have a butt okay! and i'm not you-know-what! :)!
erika:) hey my calculator! classes have been very fun with you:) thanks for making me smile always! i know you'll get into triple! so don't fret! always top math! x(y+3)= xy +3x! haha! :D!
nat ee:) cushion! stay healthy and stop catching the flu! i'll miss your shrieks! and yes, your birthday! though its in the hols... lt's leave the rest as a surprise? haha. i'll miss you! nincompoop-of-a-fat-white-cushion! i'll always remember that! :)
juan:) my tennis star! i'll miss drinking sago with you... and i'll read the birthday card every year: just like you wanted me too! :)
ting:) science labbie! i'll never forget the test tube incident! you got me all wet! haha i hope i'll get over my fear of the bunsen burner! thanks for turning it on every time:) i'll miss you!
megs:)! ms dougie pointer ms ben romans ms...fernandez(right?)! haha nearly forgot! thanks for all the cheering up... and i'm sorry i din't go foe the click 5! i'm glad you enjoyed it though! and yes, thanks for remebering me in the option form! it doesn't matter! i'll pray for you to get into triple! don't worry! hey bat-a-bat-a hey bat-a-bat-a swing! o. i'll miss you! and thanks for all the assurance! meggs...God bless! :):)!
sub:) sup sub! haha yes,i won't forget you! enjoy NJC! don't worry bout the orientation and all you'll get through it all fine:) jia you!(i'm cheering you on!)
jo:) yes, i'll miss you ms ian hecox! you cried you smiley! i'll miss you quirky acts morning assembly! haha... back in line 35! all the best triple! :)
All that triggered so much wonderful memories. Looking back, 2 years flew. Secondary 1 orientation ans everything. It's flown by...teasr are really inevitable now...
But then again, without changes, what is life?
Looking ahead, new classmates and new approaches to subjects of my interests. I found out some of my soon-to-be classmates. It interesting looking at how weird it may seem. But I guess it'll all change next year---especially after OBS. Fun!
Yesterday and today, feelings varied from the weirdest to the most basic no-nos. But however, feelings are unstoppable and uncontrollable. (Still trying to get myself to absorb that fact..)
Conversations went all weird. Touch seemed to be the last thing I wanted, and surprisingly, feared.(People might not understand what I say here, or even misunderstand me. But please do not come to any assumptions.) Still, they were uncontrollable. And I'm sorry if I made you feel weird,(though you denied it face front),I didn't mean anything. An I really wanted you to know that. So yes, now you do.
That conversation, though not spoken through you as a physical, seemed weird. And it's not the first time. I'm beginning to suspect many things, from the little loop holes left behind. It'll be sweet. But why?
Thoughts trigger Thoughts provoke Thoughts create suspicion Thoughts are powerful
Thoughts elevate Thoughts degrade Thoughts sadden Thoughts are powerful
Thoughts create Thoughts destroy Thoughts disrupt Thought are powerful
I'm going on a marathon mission, with songs. Cool!
smile! :)
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Thursday, October 25, 2007
10:19:00 PM
i survived today:)
and i'm really proud of myself:)
i did the right thing:)
and sorta had funtoday:)
and slept:)
alot:)
last day tomorrow:)
wow:)
things are moving fast:)
and its great:)
as for now:)
i hope it'll always be like this:)
what fun:)
i better go to bed now:)
and stop thinking:)
forgetting is fun:)
i should try it:)
fun:)
nov 14:)
everything will beknown:)
pleasant news for me:)
hopefully:)
haha:)
nights:)
i'll give you my dirty lil' secret haha i won't! =x!
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Wednesday, October 24, 2007
2:02:00 PM
Everything's going to change in 15 minutes.
And then, 2008 comes in, washin away 2007.
Changes in everything once again.
I hope I survive today.
All the changes.
So many.
Will it be too much?
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Tuesday, October 23, 2007
4:03:00 PM
omg =0 this is like the world breaking news megan soh wan ning is at the click five hotel(the hotel where the click five are staying at) omg
Though I'm bored, I guess I'm glad to feel pretty free. Dad didn't ask me to do anything, like he normally does. Strange.
I really seem numbed to everything right now. And it somehow feels good.
Well, not anymore. It popped. Well, I hope the feeling returns.
I, for the first time, played games online for about 2 hours straight. I'm proud of myself. Haha...
Freakish. Acoholing. Words we invented. It really amazing.
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Monday, October 22, 2007
8:51:00 PM
the concert started...o man. hope the people out there are enjoying themselves:)
i just sms the sms once again. and diverted my calls to jas...
thanks jas!
omg. their like choosing in 5 minutes:)
jia you jas....
aiya... never choose us...damn it... :(
BOO!
♥ 3:28:00 PM
Its a wonder why I like to listen to songs after they are hits on the radio. It happening to me again.
School was practically a drag today. With a major surprise turned disaster. Subject combination D has now another alternative- Geograpghy elective. Meggs was sweetly happy for me. It was the perfect course, for my past view on the combination. Had all those not happened, my view would have remained. But sadly, opinions change.
Just after I decided on my combination, this news comes in. The long hours of inner war seemed to be over. I guess I shall have to lists the pros and cons again. Dang...
Bern and jas have only 2 more days left in TK. Sadly. I'll miss you bern:)
Somehow, I can't scroll down all the way on this blog. And I simply can't figure out why, despite staring at the html codes for...a long time.
...
How could I not be angry right? In situations like this, controlling your helps helps, but not getting rid of it. It was said in cell that you should be angry if your pride is hurt but if there is something wrong being done. For example, injustice, dishonesty or the breaking of the law perhaps. And so, I have a very good reason to be angry at what you've done, how you think, but not at you.
Anyway, I cant blame you either. It's pretty much human reaction. [See, I'm looking at things from two DIFFERENT perspectives.] But still, not that violently. I'm just going to avoid talking about this openly I guess. Explaining to you won't be much fun, or of much help either.
And I hope you stop mentioning all these happenings. And, STOP apologising. Everything's in the past. Players in life simply have to move on. Whether you face the truth or not, life still goes on. If you choose to move on, its way better for you. But if you get stuck in the rut of mistakes and the unpleasantness that came along with it, good luck to you.
But, don't expect me to forget everything. Time will take it away. And don't worry, my memory is indded failing me at a young age of 14. [Oh no! What I am going to do at the Os?!]
Well, shopping for chocolates were surprisingly quick with bern:) Napping on the bus would have been much pleasant without the malay obscenities and the banging of bern's unsteady head against the window.It was quite a sight, I must say, to send one into fits. A sleepy bobbing head that bobs and sways with the movements of the bus and finally hits the window like a falling coconut. My, what descriptions...haha...
I just watched the MV of Wake Up Call by maroon 5. It was a rather interesting video to watch, excluding the obscenities once again. The world seems to sound more and more obscene, well it is like that now days.
Tomorrow is Promotion Day. Wht fun! At least we can slack at home instead of at school. Wednesday is another jolly day of E- Learning. Apparently, and sadly, I've got to go to school to submit the subject combination form- the answer to which I won't be able to sleep tonight...[sighs]. I feel old.
...
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Sunday, October 21, 2007
9:37:00 PM
hey
stop feeling that way ok? all the people in this world are uniquely different. no 2 people are the same. from the movie stars to the girl down the road
believe in yourself you are you that person is the way that person is
comments dont matter its what you feel
you'll snap out of it
jia you! :)
♥ 6:47:00 PM
Today was a mixture of fun, and shit.
Morning was pretty fun with jas, ann and doryy. Xavier and Tabbs joined us later. And for the first time, I actually won a card game playing with Doryy and jas. The usual sharon-so-can't-win us nonsense went on AGAIN.
Cell was the shitty part. Not the cell cell, as in the devotion part, but the, oh never mind. It just wasn't alright. Pizza was ordered later.
It so weird when you know someone for so long, but yet, that person doesn't understand you. And someone, as close as an a friend you meet every week can say the right things to you so easily. But then again, it isn't your friend's fault for not understanding you. Its your fault, I think. I'm not sure...
Thanks for sending me that sms. I'm okay now. Much better than just now:) Thanks:)
I had a lot to say, a while ago. But now, everything seemed to just have evaporated. Wow. Vapourised. This post is so shitty. Man...
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Saturday, October 20, 2007
9:55:00 PM
I'm so angry, frustrated and pissed off.
It's not my fault.
I need to vent. But I can't seem to. and I don't know why. I've got so much to say.
But I guess it doesn'y matter anyway.
whatever
♥ 9:48:00 PM
Abnormal addictions. Obsessive compulsive needs. Mood swings. Pessimistic views on everything. Exploding of the brain. Repeating of songs 12 times in row. Using the moisturizer continuously for hours straight. Whats up?
♥ 8:43:00 PM
Ayo technology, sounds cool, but the MV is sick. Advised not to check it out. Really.
I read it. I'm whatever-ing everything. Once again, same old me.
I sewed up the pinafore buckles. But not without stabbing the needle repeatedly into my index finger. So much for not taking home economics.
The click 5 gig will be coming up soon. I haven't really broached my dad about the topic. Hopefully, when I finally get down to it, I;ll succeed. I mean, I have to. Once in a lifetime sharon. Once in a lifetime:)
This game is pretty fun. Except for the fact that I couldn't proceed on to play after the fourth level because I couldn't make it to the third bar:( You could give it a shot. And maybe even teach me, I bet most of you will be able to so that considering the fact that Isuck at games...
♥ 11:58:00 AM
I shall make the change today. Hopefully. Listening to the radio is indeed a very good medicine for me. Except for the fact that it gives me really a really weird barrage (learnt that word from English EOYs) of thoughts when a next open my eyes.
I apparently wasted the short life of the radio batteries as I simply refused to shut the box off, and ended up falling asleep. Moving, as usual, in the middle of the night sent the earphones back in place. Thus waking me up with some tribal hip- hop song. Sorry batteries, I know you still have a little bit of life before you incidentally pass out. But please not now, the hits are playing:)
Everyone in my family seems to have something to stress up. Mum with the house and workplace work. Dad, grandma and aunt with my grandad's condition. Ray has exams but is not really feeling it. Go Ray! I've got enough on my mind.
Today morning was spent mopping around in front of the telly and mapping of thoughts once again. I seem to hover around the same moods. Not seeming to get anywhere else, which the led me to get my ass off the bed to here.
Tomorrow's going to be an unexpected day. And I'm scared I'll hyperventilate, in the midst of every one's nothingness.
Some people seem to be more immune to stress than others. Why is that?
It's really horrible how the human mind rationally tells you to do something that is "right" and the heart contradicts it with an irrational reason, though pleasing the human for the future purpose. However, the horrible part comes in when you realise that the human mind and heart are in the same human, thus, causing a war in one. The war is over one's feelings. The problem is in one, but yet, the answer and solution is yet in that same one. It's amazing how nonsensical this can get.
lack·a·dai·si·cal /ˌlækəˈdeɪzɪkəl/ [lak-uh-dey-zi-kuhl] adjective 1. without interest, vigor, or determination; listless; lethargic: a lackadaisical attempt.
2. lazy; indolent: a lackadaisical fellow.
I feel this way now.
I better drag myself away now.
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Friday, October 19, 2007
9:34:00 PM
With the swinging of moods and all the other issues that arise as a baggage along with it, activities need to be changed. Perhaps a little more isolation and cooping up in my room. Activities need to be mapped out once again. And maybe, changes to whatever is in my ability to change.
Coming on the chat lines need to be greatly reduced, together with hanging by the phone lines and also reduction of texting, which does not need to be done to exercise my fingers. Megan's stress ball will do, I suppose.
More of blogging and mapping out of feeling, which I tried out just a while ago, would be much healthy. And more music would clear everything. Somehow the music she listens to, helps in weird ways. Well, then again, all this may not help.
Lately, especially lately, people have been telling me that i think too much. They tried getting me off it, somehow, i realised something then. Thinking is a part of me. And thinking, is not a part of everyone. Thinking, is way good friend.
Its something I have to do. Somehow the things I think, the deeper, the more interesting views and opinions I gain. It all very logical, but yet, all so complicated. I even, after the thinking, have different views of people, and myself.
I seem to see facets of different people, in other different people. Its all very interesting.
A change of skin to represent the change in me, that seems like a good idea. Hence the change. I guess it's more of what I feel and who I am now...
It's chosen. Maybe, tomorrow, it'll be done up.
Shut-eye time.
For some reason, my nails are shiny and pink:)
♥ 1:51:00 PM
Do you feel like a man when you push her around? Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground? Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.
A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect every action in this world will bear a consequence If you wade around forever you will surely drown I see what's going down. I see the way you go and say your right again, say your right again heed my lecture
Do you feel like a man when you push her around? Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground? Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end as your lies crumble down a new life she has.
One day she will tell you that she has had enough its coming round again
♥ 11:34:00 AM
I don't understand why you find all these so surprising? Frankly, I think what you said is simply an understatement. I don't know why either then. But all I know is that I hate you. and for the part where you said it hurts, you've been through none of that. In fact, you've got people who know that have been through far worse than anything you've been through. So stop acting so pitiful. Yes, life may not be very pleasant. But still, its not that bad either.
At first, I actually felt bad for you. Even after everything. But after thinking through everything, I don't think I should be feeling that way. I know you know that I an referring to you. So I'll just tell you here
I HATE YOU! AND I DON'T REGRET SAYING THAT
I'M NOT SOME PERSON YOU THINK YOU CAN TREAD OVER. AND IF I SEE YOU NEXT YEAR, I'LL KEEP HATING YOU MORE
I can't believe you. I guess I'll never know you. I'm not taking that risk.
♥ 10:41:00 AM
Chocolate and Hazelnut breadspread on hot popping toast on a friday morning just after finnishing an assignment on AskNLearn. Not very ideal, but the spread is good:) like always.
Was supposed to be accompained by someone, but oh-no, you backed out on me. I'm so not entertaining you on your way back to home from the MRT anymore. Jas went to practice piano instead of doing the assignment. I'm not sure if she actually remembered the fact that she should have already submitted her assignment. Anyway, it wouldn't matter for you:) lucky ass man...
You're still not online...
I expected many people to blog about the whole I-hate-elearning issue. Apparently, I was wrong. None of that, at least not many.
I still hope that no one takes offence to the earlier post. Though I know should be expecting glaring faces and other forms of non- verbal diapleasure. Hopefully nothing verbal, no offence.
11 more minute to 11. Chinese. Dang it!
Shoes.
Map out the details.
Uniforms.
QT
Not more than 1 hour of napping (dad INSISTS)
For some reason, dad doesn't like me(and my sister) to be owls: hoot hoot! I guess, when we sleep later,we drive him up the wall more!
Poor dad!
And whoever that b**** is, giving my mum a hard time, you better f****** stop. Go die lah you. She got much more to do then entertain yout shit. Go die!
~anger vented~
now to go back to chat. later...
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Thursday, October 18, 2007
7:45:00 PM
My Mood Is Sitting On A Swing
Why am I feeling this way? I'm so annoyed with everything. Complaining ang whining. And the, the cycle repeats itself again. That's all I seem to do. There are so many unsorted, unsettled issues, thoughts and feelings.
The subject comibination is a pressing issue. What am I supposed to choose? I'm now ruling the option that I thought I would take, and the option evryine thiught I would take. So? It shouldn't make a difference. But now, it is. Why must I choose the option that people expect me to take. Isn't it my choice? Stop giving me those faces and those rolling eyeballs to show your disagreement. Even now, I just got an sms asking what combination I am choosing. See?
That choice seems all to pretentious to me. Everyone seems to be acting on and off stage. That's my view.Why do people behave that way? Yes, being nice and everything is okay. But why acting infront of someone to impress them? To show that you are stronger, or simply to put that person off?
So what? Is their life a play? And they? The puppets?
All I can think of drama is that is only was my interest. With great emphasis on the word "was". It used to be all fun exciting and all. With the lights, the sets, busy rehersals and costumes. Somehow now it seems like a drag to me. The studio used to be the best place I could think of at school. But now, I think of it with the same primitive motive of a place to "enjoy air con".
Why? I myself dont know...
Besides, I have never gelled in with the people there. So why? What is the point of being in a class that you can't adapt to, or even simply not-want-to-be-there? I don't know.
Acting in life. That simply disgusts me. Who actually plan, and even scrpit their lives? Apparently, and sadly, people do. Thus, I seem to head the no-no way now. For now.
All the blocks make me feel worse. Life still goes on. That same old sappy, pathetic life... my life.
Imagine being set-up and then finding out that it was all a show? Imagine playing the character of a victim all your life? Seriously. Imagine.
That's all I see with the choice of putting myself in drama. That's the effects of my taking part in this.
And if I had never existed here, I wouldn't have gotten hurt, repeatedly. And if Ihad never existed here, I wouldn't have people having weird opinions about me. And if I had never existed here, I wouldn't have met all of...them. And you.
And that's why no. No.
And yes, I'm not okay. So stop asking me. Stop.
Stop all the repeatings. Stop.
I'm sorry for those who haven't seen this side of me. I've just never let it all out. And I've decided to do today. I hope I didn't come down to harshly. But right now, after lately, these are my feelings.
It's going to take me alot to get me to take that combination. I suggest you don't try. At all.
I got problems up to here. I got people in my ear. telling me these crazy things that I don't wanna hear.
I simply don't wanna hear. So shut the hell up.
I feel like staring life agin. With probably a new family, and a new circle of friends. An environment change would be the best thing I could get now. Sadly, there is no "refresh" button. The M1 line seems to carry- One life. Live it.
Apparently, I don't feel like doing that now. Or probably ever.
After letting it all out. I feel much better. I just receieved the best email
OMG!
YOU have been invited to The Click Five Showcase! (RSVP only if you can come) Inbox Reply Reply to all Forward Print Add Warner to Contacts list Report phishing Show original Message text garbled? Warner Music Singapore show details 7:58 pm (0 minutes ago)
Hi there!
Thank you for registering with us. Here are some good news for you as a treat!
As YOU are one of the first 200 fans who registered, we are inviting YOU to the 987FM showcase, happening before the autograph session.
987FM EXCLUSIVE SHOWCASE
DATE – 25th October 2007, Thursday TIME – Doors open at 7.30PM PLACE – Ministry of Sound @ The Cannery, Clarke Quay BRING – Album "Modern Minds And Pastimes", Autograph Invitation Card & I/C for entry (One invite admits one) RSVP - Name & I/C number with subject headline RSVP MOS (only if you can come) NOTE – Entry subject to club capacity
AUTOGRAPH SESSION (AFTER THE SHOWCASE)
DATE – 25th October 2007, Thursday TIME – 9:30PM PLACE – Ministry of Sound @ The Cannery, Clarke Quay (Start queue at Kandi Bar) BRING – Album "Modern Minds And Pastimes", Autograph Invitation Card & I/C for entry (One invite admits one)
* NOTE the band will only be signing the new album "Modern Minds And Pastimes", one copy per person.
* Entry will NOT be allowed without the invitation card.
Thank you and we'll seeya soon! J
Your friends
Warner Music Singapore
That's what I received. Thank for cheering me up e- mail:)
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Wednesday, October 17, 2007
6:20:00 PM
The results, my results, are rather not-so-wanted.
Math was the best paper I ever did to please my self. Though the results were not the best of the best, nor anywhere near it, the percentage that i scored for what i did was rather amazing.
From young, the results were all foe the parents honor and glory. If the were good, my parents would be proud of be. This would then result me to be happy. And likewise, otherwise. However, with their current schedules, it is not easy for them to be happy or reflect other forms of emotion. This thus led me to gain independence, a little more at least, and self pride. Learning to be happy with your own efforts seemed easy. However, I never expected to feel that i disappointed myself.
That feeling was expressed, or actually rather realised today. It was dramatically expressed when hell broke loose with History. Today, my 2 supposedly-my-forte subject results were released. I crumbled,from the inside.
The feeling was indeed horrible. Usually, this would be the farthest it went. Today was an exception. Dad praised me for the results. However, unlike usual, I was not relieved by that. Instead I felt much worse and became listless. I am now proudly with my own thinking. Something, I don't usually have, sadly.
Still, I wish things turned out better.
Today, for the first time, I saw strong towers falling. It was unexpected. It was surrounded with people. Somehow, I didn't feel sad and sorry. Unlike the people around me. The ruins were quite a pile. It seemed to have been stripped to its basic layer of concrete slabs. However, my reaction, thoughts are feelings were nothing but plain mean. I sniggered at the debris, and even commented that it was "good" for the building.
How can you blame me?
I indeed hate that building. It came up strong again. Maybe stronger, maybe weaker. That irked me once again. After all that has happened, that tower first saved me, then mesmerised me and then weighed on me. Until today, I still feel the impact.
And now, I am determined to hate that building.
Yes, it is only a building, why hate it? To me, it was more than just a tower. Other than hating it, what else can I do?
The strongholds will not last for long, I presume.
People seem to be getting what they deserve. People that have been hurt before, are now much happier. The people who hurt, are now hurting. I feel happy for those once hurt, but now are happy.
Just deserts? Is that what people get? Or karma? Either way, I don't know.
The results are finally all over. I better start thinking hard and make plans.
:)
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Tuesday, October 16, 2007
10:07:00 PM
My deepest condolences to you. Deaths of loved ones are never easy. Since you've gone throgh it once before at this. I'm sure you will get pat this also. Be strong in all this.
sharwin/ sushi: Hey. You're the eldets. You gotta be strong. Your results will be coming soon. I'm sure everything will be okay. You'll get into SHSS. Whatever happens, trust in the Lord.
Shaswin/ sashimi: Though you are not able to comunicate now, you'll be able to. Don't give up.
Youngest: Don't miss mummy. She'll always be in your heart. Listen to your aunties and study hard. Everything will be okay. Take care of your brother and listen to sharwin. Be a good boy.
To you 3 brothers, don't fret. Things will be better. I'll always remeber the fun times at the bus. Will keep you in prayers, God bless:)
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Monday, October 15, 2007
10:19:00 PM
My legs turned into jelly. After a day of slacking, amazing. Tabbs' tag was sweet. Yes, I'm okay. Well not really. But I will be okay. I'm not sure it will happen tomorrow of the day after-the result. Apparently, Xavier has holiday tomorrow. Yes, self declared by him once again. Jasmine was reported to have been rotting at home.
I spent 12- 6:15 on youtube watching the latest show staing wu zun. I'm not going crazy, but, the show was funny. I've watched practically half of the serial in just 1 afternoon. Boredom drives you to the extreme. 2 camps await. Church and OBS. Looking forward to both, with a wide grin. I hope I'll survive. The church one would be easy. But not likely OBS. Infact, I hope to succeed in not turning to a water hose/ gountain tomorrow.*fingers crossed*
I hope tomorrow will be a good day. Many hugs would be passed around, well forsighted. Hopefully many smiles and no flooding.Hopefully. I better shut my eyes and rest my legs,more. Nights to everyone.
if you dont appear soon, i won't miss you any longer
♥ 10:09:00 AM
TO ALL CLICK FIVE FANS:
THE CLICK FIVE TAKE OVER SINGAPORE!10.12.07
The band made it to Asia! Manila is to be rocked HARD this weekend then onto the Black Eyed Peas tour in Bangkok, Jakarta and Singapore! People of Southeast Asia...consider yourself warned! You are about to be rocked and rolled to your core. We promise!
Wednesday, Oct 24th 8 p.m. - TV Guest appearance - Ch 5 "Live The Dream" Grand FinaleThis is the official "Live The Dream" website. Updated info on how to enter to win audience tickets for the show & a meet & greet with the band will be posted any second!http://livethedream.mediacorptv.sg/
Thursday, Oct 25th 7:30 p.m. - 987FM "The Click Five" Showcase @ Ministry Of Sound, The Cannery- Tune into 987FM to catch them Live at Ministry Of Sound- This is for 987FM winners & by invitation only...so keep listening to 987FM to win your invitation!- Under 18's allowed, until 9 p.m. when Club rules will apply- MOS Members will be able to enter (priority given to winners & Invitation holders)
Thursday, Oct 25th - "The Click Five" Modern Minds & Pastimes Album Signing Session - After showcase @ Ministry Of Sound- Fans who bought the new album limited edition, with the special invitation inside, this is for you to thank you for your support! - Please register at wms.theclickfive@gmail.comby Oct 21st.-Please bring along your album & invitation (one per person) on the day, and to be fair to everyone, we will only be able to sign one album or item per person
♥ 9:58:00 AM
I feel groggy. Ifeel stuffed up. I feel bored.
But I'm not the only one with flu. Many people are sick.
Flu bug, FLY AWAY!!!
♥ 8:48:00 AM
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player etc. on Shuffle. 2. For each question, press the 'next' button to get your answer. 3. WRITE THE SONG TITTLE NO MATTER HOE SILLY IT SOUNDS! 4. Comment can be added after the answer/ song tittle in (brackets)
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1. If someone says 'is the okay?', you say: stronger (they better not be asking about coffee) 2. What do you like in a guy/girl ? Crank that(wow...it doesn't make ANY sense) 3.How do you feel today?apologise (to who?my sister should be doing that-she passed the flu...) 4. What is your life's purpose? the way i are (perfect answer.) 5. What is your motto? gimme more(i should have been saying that to my parents) 6. What do your friends think of you?who knew (best answer:) 7. What do you think of your parents?rock star(EEEWWWWWWW! NO WAY MAN!) 8. What do you think about very often?bubbly(?!) 9. What is 2+2?lovestoned(:) 10. What do you think of your best friend?big girls don't cry(HAHA...) 11. What do you think of the person you like? ayo technology(errrmm...but in a way...maybe?) 12. What is your life story? hate that i love you(...cool...) 13. What do you want to be when you grow up?the great escape(my ambition! finally ther's an answer to that!) 14. What do you think of when you see the person you like? How far we've come(that's so not the answer...*[creeps]*) 15. What would you dance to at your wedding?cyclone(o god, NO!) 16. What will they play at you funeral?over you (my life's over already...) 17. What is your hobby/ interest?wake up call (...) 18. what is your biggest fear?wait for you...(to tell me first...haha...) 19. what is your biggest secret?when your gone...(i'll miss you) 20. what do you think of your friends?bartender(OH MY!!!!NOOOO!)
[hahahaha] That was pretty fun to answer. The results were...haha...
Having the flu is not very fun. The nose feels stuffed up. Oh, it makes me feel like a bubble again. Listening to 98.7 yesterday was interesting. Thoughts get provoked better when you actually concentrate to using a human sense at a time. I shall listen to the radio more of ten. Somehow, thoughts really get provoked. And when thoughts get provoked, we think. What fun!
:)
i still miss you
♥
Sunday, October 14, 2007
7:34:00 PM
I'm so glad that they've gone. Sadly, they'll be coming back again. Hopefully, in a long, long time.
Church was pretty demoralising today for me today. Though that would be the most unexpected thing to say from the service.
Before the service, it was pretty crowed. Jasmine, doryy, tabbs, paline, jenna and Xavier. Playing titi (pronounced as tie-ti) with people who are out to make me lose and then gain pleasure from it wasn't very my idea of fun. However, pauline (bad cell leader), Xavier (stone) and doryy(fish) were vivacious sadists. Playing or talking to to these people, sigh...
Service was good from the leaders point of view, I presume. Many youths came to the alter and were prayed for. 1 youth was even slain by the spirit. i guess everyone felt the presence of the Holy Spirit. But I felt weird for some reason. All this isn't unusual to me. Still, the feeling of being redundant lingered. I'm not sure if it is still around. Songs seemed very unknown to me. I was restless even when the service just begun. Everything just felt so... demoralising, for some reason. the reason was not apt enough for the situation, thus making me feel the pressure once more. So i simply drifted throughout the entire service, felling like a popped bubble. However, the bubble was floating with all the other filled bubbles.
Lunch was rather the good. The food was nice. The environment, no. The smoke seemed to block out something. something that I don't know. Plans of going out to bowl were ruined by a tournament at Safra Orchid Bowl. I'm still wondering if I was really affected by that, or was effected because it was apt to be and feel that way.
Dad says i can't go out tomorrow. Why? You just went out today. I can't believe I actually wasted a chance to ice skate to simply zone around like a zombie.[Sorry joanna. It not that walking with you was boring or anything. I was just not me today...]
It wouldn't make a god damn difference if you refuse to look at things from a different angle. so if you aren't going to look at things differently, I'm not listening to you either. why should I if you won't? It better be 2 way. Or nothing is really going to work out. you haven't tried. So if you aren't going to start, I just giving up. and though I can't, I will.
Everything that I want to happen, is not happening. The opposite happens. Everything that I don't want to happen, is happening, at I greater degree of being horrible. It's so demoralising. The next worst thing is for you to change church, and for me not to get to the click five. The results aren't going to be good. And things are going to be worse if I don't get the intended course. My instincts tell me that things aren't going to be good. Sadly, I don't have a plan A, or B. My mind keeps flashing different angles of the pink vaio, which isn't helping me. I feel so god damn !@$%&(&#$%@#$!
Redundancy is redundant in my life: hey you, disappear, you hear me?!
Where are you? I can't find you... I feel like screaming at your face, but then again, I can't bear to...
It's so weird when you get hooked to something/ someone that is a total stranger to you...
church ponners= bad people
Ahve you ever felt that when you are in certain moods, you NEED to talk to someone? But that someone apparently, isn't someone close? It's so weird. I feel like talking to someone. I don't know why. But calling a mere friend, and ranting half the problems in your life, doesn't seem right to me
I feel like a bloated bubble. I feel like getting popped.
"shut up your mouth lah you apek!" priceless.
i'm going to research on how to deflate.
'POP'i wish:)
Tomorrow's going to be a long, long day.
i haven't seen you for so long i miss you
i miss you alot
♥
Saturday, October 13, 2007
12:21:00 PM
YOU ARE HOLY You are holy (You are holy)
you are mighty (you are mighty)
You are worthy (You are worthy)
worthy of praise (worthy of praise)
I will follow (I will follow)
I will listen (I will listen)
I will love you (I will love you)
all of my days (all of my days)
I will sing to and worship (You are Lord of Lords, You are King of Kings)
The King who is worthy (You are Mighty God, Lord of everything)
I will love and adore Him (You're Immanuel, You're the Great I Am)
I will bow down before Him (You're the Prince of Peace, who is the Lamb)
I will sing to and worship (You're the Living God, You're my Saving Grace)
The King who is worthy (You will reign forever, You are Ancient of Days)
I will love and adore Him (You are Alpha, Omega, Beginning, and End)
I will bow down before Him (You're my Savior, Messiah, Redeemer and Friend)
You're my Prince of Peace and I will live my life for You
I was bored, as earlier mentioned, and so, I lamely went to take a couple of quizzes. the quiz in the earlier post is particularly interesting. It seems to reveal your subconscious mind. It seems to be scientifically proven so you guys may want to try it out. But the quiz takes preety long, consisting of 56 questions. Remeber not to go to a back link as you would have to restart the questions all over. So, think before you select an answer. Enjoy:)
You are full of questions about life, people, and your own potential. You spend more time than others imagining the possibilities for your life — and you're open to things others are too afraid to consider.
You have an almost physical need to know and do more. It's only through new experiences that you feel a greater understanding of yourself and the world. You also have a rebellious streak that shows up when you feel unable to truly influence the world or circumstances around you. Your appetite for novel experiences also shows an openness others don't have, but wish they did.
Your psyche is very rich; the more you learn about it, the more you will understand who you really are.
Yesterday was a big mistake. Everything went wrong.
Church was fun yesterday, and wet too. The worship service was great. For the first time, we actually jumped:) though we were in heels. No, we just took them off:) It was fun, not to mention tiring. Dodging between songs were also inevitable. Justin, Abigail and two other children were waving the flags, hysterically. Jas apparently forgot the dodging part and got whacked by justin, who simply gave a sheepish smile before bursting into laughter after seeing my laughter. Sorry jas:)
oh.
SELAMATHARIRAYA
I received a very sweet sms from Hanis today. Nis: Selamathariraya back to you. Enjoy your hard effort made cookies and slack through the 3 day holidays with friends and family:) Enjoy!
It was something I never experienced before, at least not until I had the ability to remember stuff. I always wished to, but now, I'll only wish to experience it if it is not her but someone else. Still, it was a warm and pleasant sight. Moments are to be treasured. Treasure it.
Why did everything I looked forward to disappear yesterday? It was so *od damn irritating. I can't believe that EVERYTHING,literally, that I looked forward to simply just crashed in front of me.
sleepover: church rejected request movie: timings were too late english marks: record breaking for the wrong reasons history marks: MAJOR DISASTER church: No one came! I was looking forward to it the whole week. Sunday better be better! going out: end of school was delayed because of history
I hate yesterday. Hopefully, today will be better. Hopefully.
Having restrictions makes the choice of activities so difficult. I don't know what to do today. And I hate that thought...
I miss anon...
♥
Friday, October 12, 2007
6:21:00 PM
~ today was indeed a wet, wet day~
♥ 5:15:00 PM
Today was a wet, wet day.
My day began with a puke and butterflies in my tummy. Record broke when I did badly for English. It was a record that I conscientiously preserved for a year. All my effort came tumbling down with just one two sections of the paper. Hyper ventilating was the only way out for me, and Megan. She fortunately managed to calm her and me. After enjoying her sweet success for 2 minutes, the fretting began again.
Recess wasn't much to cheer me up. A faulty papaya, whose fault is still a mystery to all I asked, was something I didn't ask for.
History was the unleashing of floodgates for me. Handling pressure, stress and extreme unpleasantness was never my forte, I guess everyone knew that today. The answer key, in my opinion, was ridiculous. I never grasped the concept of history or LORMS. And still, I don't want to either.
It was a major brain explosion. Without friends, I would have died, of history brain explosion. I'm glad I'm still alive.
Special thanks to:
Meggs: Thanks a lot! I hope you get the marks you need to get into triple:) God bless:)
Bern: Thanks BIG TIME! If not for you, I would still be depressed. Thanks also for the many hugs you gave me:)
Erika: I know you too went hysterical with the results:( its okay i guess. Thanks for the smiley face:)
Fon: Thank you:) i hope you get history combi [eeeeewwww!]
Kristen: Thank you for the hugs:) and the consoling. That was very helpful. Hope to see you in the same class next year:)
Ting: I'm sooo glad you did well. Jia you for the triple!
Hershey: Forget the shit! I know we suck at history! Good luck for the delivery of marks to the parents. You'll make up through:)
Jas:) : Swinging with you was fun:) Thanks for the hugs:), and the lame stuff you told me, and the "aiya..." speeches. Greatly appreciated. We'll watch a movie another day:D
Agnes: YES! History sucks! Thanks for the encouragement! God bless too:)
Xavier: Haha you stonefish-gamer. thanks for that sms. I laughed after that. And also after jas' pig snortling...
I hope i didn't miss out anyone:) And if I did, please tell me:)
Going out with jas was fun. Complaining to Madam Khoo about that faulty papaya, running out of the school gate and the many pokings owere fun. Not forgetting the neoprints and the squaddles, another word i invented. Meaning to say the squabbling and the waddling:)
We've got church later. And for once, I'll be attending the not-really-compulsory cells. Its celebration night:) What fun!
Friday wasn't what I expected. The last thing I need is for you to give it a miss. I've been looking forward to this for a week. I hope i won't be let down:)
I miss last sunday:) It was fun...I hope this sunday and all the days after will be fun too...
It was a weird experience. You are a good comforter...you should be under the bed covers. The owner of the bed, funnily, would be lucky.<-That sentence sounds weird:)
I need to bathe soon, so as not to be late:)
Motivation for the rest of the day: church and *********:)
Motivation till results are all known: click five coming in 10 days:)
i can't wait:) i found out everything:) you're the best:) stripey smiley:)
♥
Thursday, October 11, 2007
10:22:00 PM
Lyrics I'm finding myself at a loss for words And the funny thing is it's okay The last thing I need is to be heard But to hear what You would say
[CHORUS] Word of God speak Would You pour down like rain Washing my eyes to seeYour majesty To be still and know That You're in this place Please let me stay and rest In Your holiness Word of God speak I'm finding myself in the midst of You Beyond the music, beyond the noise All that I need is to be with You And in the quiet hear Your voice
[CHORUS] Word of God speak Would You pour down like rain Washing my eyes to seeYour majesty To be still and know That You're in this place Please let me stay and rest In Your holiness Word of God speak
[CHORUS] Word of God speak Would You pour down like rain Washing my eyes to see Your majesty To be still and know That You're in this place Please let me stay and rest In Your holiness Word of God speak
I'm finding myself at a loss for words And the funny thing is it's okay
current health status: hardcore butt ache[well yes fonda, i apparently have one...] groggy eyes painful tummy: since a long time ago at the global warming talk...
ahh.... It's so annoying, that I wanted to skip school on thursday and friday, but failed to accomplish that. Thinking of accomplishing it tomorrow, but oh no no, English [:)] and History [:Z] EOY results are coming out. Pfttt....
No one is online.
I like Sarah Kim, the emcee[?!] for today's DOVE self-esteem talk. Though she does contradicts herself while she talks, her personality seems very nice(and so was the shirt she was wearing..) I think many people appreciated the talk more than any of the other shit they kindly organised talks. Well, I for one did.
Inevitably, after being squashed on the floor for hours straight, it took a toll on my poor ass. And many other people's ass. It is not something pleasurable. Not all all....
Tummy aches was one cause of my trying-to-be-happy mood. Yes, there was nothing to be happy about. But trying to be optimistic was what I was attempting, and that was the dire consequences.
I wonder how I'll do for the papers that will be given out tomorrow...I hope English will not be below an A1. Placing my hopes on it, to get to at least one course without fail--- DRAMA ELECTIVE COURSE.
Oh, and everything to you, is in your favourite colour.
And yes, I will read that card on my birthday every year.
"eh...move back..." "why? you miss me ar?" "whatever..."
i still remember:)
Happy Birthday:) and good luck for triple science:D
:)
♥ 7:51:00 PM
disclaimer: blogger is in horrible mood: complainings await
it has been such a long shitty day
Waking up was never a problem for me. It wasn't the problem today. But after 6 continuous days of slacking and waking up late, waking up at 5:15 was going to need a little extra effort. I miss the long sleeping hours and zoning into dreamland.
School couldn't have gotten any better. Fast hip hop and protruding chest movements [ewww...that manfred guy purposely chose those moves...], following by an amazing talk and then self defence.
Hip hop is not my thing. Maybe watching and enjoying people sweating it out, but not getting to the sweat part. Watching classmates tripping over their own legs, and the legs of otheres, wasn't exactly a pleasant sight, hilarious though.
The DOVE beauty talk was an amazing talk. They showed the world [2/1 and 2/2] wonders. Ishan't elaborate further as i know some people have not attended the talk yet. But i did whish they din't show the after- pictures of Eva Longoria and Avril. That was saddening, and got the most response from thw audience, sadly.
Self- defence, for me, was more rather of showing me how defenceless I am than learning to defend myself. That was the simple result of having Fonda Chai Li Yi as my partner, a bowler. That was one of Sharon Alice Joseph's greatest mistakes. Bowlers are very physically active. And with Si Jia on my right, it din't help either. Ayesha, Si jia's unlucky partner, and I wetre miserably dragged around and having our wrists red, with umpteen finger marks. It was horrible. And when I finally managed to get out of grip from Fon, She lashed me with a hard smack, that landed in the smack right,of sadly, my poor, poor tummy:( It was a no-joke slap. Ouch.
Yadada.... Then i realised that it was math workshop day. I agreed to hang out with Jas. Oops. Jas: I'm sorry. But I'll be staying back woith you tomorrow:) public apology...accepted... jas is online with me:) apology accepted...hehe:D
i have 5 minutes to complete the rest of my post:need to chat with Jas, lest she is lonely
That silly math workshop was plain bullshit too... But a nice time to sleep... just sit at the back.. and enjoy snooozing...
Came home alone, it was good that i did...I thoght a lot:)
i fely sick later...bleahs
i dint know it could be that sweet. The first pesr isn't anything like it... its was unconvincingly sweet... to think that it was not.
i better end... IMing jas... like the girl says... Ciaos!
bleahs
♥
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
3:35:00 PM
After our plans of heading to bugis were trashed, me and jas found new ways to find holiday do-ables. We started chatting using google talk, which apparently seem more fun than on hotmail. With the exception of games and file transfers, google talk has much nicer smilies.
So there began our lovely, not to mention childish conversation, which then moved on to conferencing with xavier.
Now people have gone marketing and snoozing after scrutinising my blog. And PIG (oink) wouldn't have found it if not for little blunders made in life's journey:(.
No ones online and i'm bored. Sis is sadly, studying:(
bleahs.
that's what i feel:(
its not very fun waitinfg for people to come back.
you did say after the exams, and i believed, for some goddamn reason.
and i thought you meant it.
sunday was barely anything, stop bringing all that up.
piano is no excuse, so just forget it.
and if you're bring about tomorrow, don't.
i know, you're too busy.
well, i'm not.
so fine, be busy.
i'm not going to care. so don't say i din't warn you.
and i don't regret screaming at you and slamming the phone right in your face.
you asked for it, and so you got it
♥
Monday, October 08, 2007
8:39:00 AM
Current mood: pissed Current song: good day
Church was fun today. Before service, at the canteen, it was me and dory. Then jas came after playing the piano at MKC. Tabbs came a second later. And we clowned around, entertained by jas’ infamous antics and sound effects. Xavier came to join us and was on the defending side of boys, as a general. I was on the other hand. Having a pointless argument with weird sound effects, silly comments and other weird jokes about everything under the sky, that was all we did. Then we ditched the canteen for cell at the ‘room’. Rick Warren laughs to him. That seems weird, very. And to top it all, three girls lying at the back, fidgeting every second wasn’t to compliment it all. I wasn’t really paying attention. I was busy :) Then yadadadada...cell continuation...with a lot of giggles, whispers, and secret texting under purple totes (cherry), poking of legs under the tables (jas and me), lifting of tables with knees (dory...and everyone else too). Tabbs seemed to be the only one paying real attention. Pauline was less strict and fun, as usual. Kai Li let us off a bit too :D
Me and jas went out for lunch. But not before getting drenched. The big boys’ cell was also in the same sinking boat. Waiting at the entrance/ exit. I, completely wet from the back and jas, shocked and wet-puppy like, were just waiting. The guys were smart enough not to run. The gaus gave up to play soccer, their first love, at the sheltered area...
We finally got out of church and headed straight to the mall. I, stupidly, blurted out the two forbidden words--- chicken balls, jas’ addiction. This got me dragged down, and forced to buy something that I wasn;t really willing too. Sadly, I seemed to give in. I bought the snack after much whimpering and blinking of eyes >.<>.<
Its really a wonder that I actually thought that way...
that was what happened yesterday...
today
highlight: aunt came from US (without my cousins:) to visit my grandad.
Mum is at work. Rachel us at school. Dad dropped granma and anut at the hospital before leaving to work. I am stuck home alone.doryy, tabbs and cherry are at shss, exams. na and jo are at ahs and dhs with exams. jas has doctor appointment:( fonda and yingbin have bowling.
dang it. I have, once again, may I highlight, lots of stuff to do. But is in this lazy mood- post exam syndrome. I wanna go out. I can't wait for friday!
friday:
slacking is fun. lazing is fun. talking to jas is very fun. whiling away time like there's no tomorrow is fun. sleeping over at church is fun. hanging with churchies without exams to consider is fun. having church worship on a friday night is VERY fun
this friday= fun:)
i can't wait.
monday:today i hope it'll get over soon... i want 9:30 to come.. ELLEN!
i like ellen. she's very nice. and funny 29 more minutes...
i miss you. yesterday. whatever man. but it was fun.
resisting. i hope i succeed.
i wish i never. :(
♥
Sunday, October 07, 2007
5:28:00 PM
Some songs are really getting to me...
i hope to complete it on time...
stripes on you look...gooood:)
i can't wait to forget you....
i like the pink vaio...its sexy, snazzy,and classy... all rolled into one...
i'm using someone, all because of you. and i'm guilty.
its too late apologise. if you ever wanted to...
it's more real, i'll miss you
i'll wish you happy birthday, soon
i never told you all that, and i won't. ever.
there's something, i just can't figure it out.
i'll be bored tomorrow.
i don't want next year to come, all because of you. i know you know that. i feel like crying, like i always did. whenever i thought about that.
its better people like you the way you are. than that fake you.
Xavier criticised 'apologise'. lame you.
i'll publish the intended post tomorrow
♥
Saturday, October 06, 2007
3:18:00 PM
oh my. ahhh... the chicken wings for lunch were great. thanks for bringing them over. and the desert too... though i don't really like that one specifically.... but o wellies.... i wanna go swiiming later... but dad and grandma are once again at the hospital.... mum went for class or somewhere.... sis is at home doing some thing.... without falling off the chair... we always used to call it the wheely-wheely chair... we still do... i remember how excited we were when we were pushing each other around in those chairs... it was very fun... we love water babies... so does jas. and hanis. and amanda. and zing... yinbin like them too... i think... my memory is failing me, sadly, at a young:) age of...14... nearly forgot... i want more chicken wings... but i will then gain weight.... i think i have in the recent days... walking at bugis for 6 hours straight with a person who can't exatly make up her mind... was pretty challenging for me.... but i t was fun too.... choosing... and buying... staring... and choosing again... and walking... i need to figure out those codes... specifically... i wonder how people do thoses code stuff... seems very cool... and very tough... especially when you're self taught... which doesn't really brighten things up.... sadly. sis is going to wrap the room with empty correction tape waste.... and i've got stuff flying down my neck... she INSISTS that she put it down my neck... thanks mei... i guess i better go dodge before she gets me into one of her weird 10 year old games....
♥
Friday, October 05, 2007
8:13:00 PM
there wasso so much that i needed to blog about. But i guess its too late to now.I'm tired...of doing nothing practically. There were so many things that i needed to say, so many issues...
issue#1: gossip
After getting to know a certain someone, i realised how distorted truth can be. Well, maybe it was not the gossip. Maybe it was the way people look at things. But then again, thoses are all just maybe-s. Actually, gossip is not really gossip. It's just the way different people look at things, from which point of view, how observant they are, how much they look into a person's actions/ character and how much other 'ingredients' that add in. One such example is Britney Spears' latest live show appearance, featuring her in her latest song- Gimme more.
You now have 2 opinions...choose which one you want to believe...
That was one scary example of vicious gossip...Spencer Gaum really did make his statement sweet...
issue#2: 'best friend' tittle
I see many best friends, becoming EX-best friends. When you mantion the other, they shut you off, and their minds with all the memories, with something that sounds like 'that was history'...or 'dont talk to me about that *@#$*&@#@#%@*@#' ...I just thought that that was really very sad. Can you imagine? Once your bestie and then next, your enemy? Just becuase of one fight...
However, in some cases, their have been many mistakes made, repeatedly. And when the cord that binds everything together finally snaps, everything falls apart. Well, after evrything, the only way is to forgive and let go. Sadly and painfully, that's the only way out.
Easier said then done. The thought of forgiveness may cross, but then the thought of what they did to you crumbles it all. And sometimes, because of one such incident, you shut off. You may want to trust otheres again...but you are just too scared to open up again. The pain is much. Iknow how that feels. I've been through it. And i seee many people with me too...I hope we all make it through...
[sighs...]
♥
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
2:08:00 PM
ahh....i'm sooooo bored. why do people get restless so easily? all i feel like doing is crapping.... jas is at home too.... that lazy ass is sleeping, but i don't see myself any better than that.... it's taking soooo long to load..... patience is a virtue, that i don't have.... i shut down the program.... all animals are equal, but some are more equal than others.... what shit was that? timbaland's song with keri hilton[i think that's her name] the beat and tune is catchy... but its pretty sick... though appreciating someone gor who they are is sweet... which is something that most people can't do, sadly. how many people do you appreciate just for the way they are? not many.... and if you do really do appreciate people for who they are, you are a real gem to your friends...
that was cheesy. but true though
i just watched joakim's performance... my sis laughed at his little boo boo.... :(
Doodle
~ today was indeed a wet, wet day~ 
