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Friday, September 28, 2007
2:21:00 PM
An update in the recent EOYs...
HISTORY: i forgot
ENGLISH: PAPER1 i forgot what i wrote....
PAPER 2 well, it was pretty okay...
GEOGRAPGHY: i loved the paper.however, 30 seconds more was all i needed to complete....
CHINESE PAPER 1: i was the only person to write that question....i wonder how i'll do.....not tooooooo gooooood.....
SCIENCE: i knew i would be demoralised after i sat for the paper.i just hope to pass....
its fun to be a *****....
especially in the train with jasmine....
do check her blog for the updates....
the cramps are getting into me....
OU--EEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
i just don't know why i can't stand you....
just....
disappear....
tomorrow is jasmineEeEeEeEe'sSsS birthday....
you just have to wait till sunday, i'm sorry i could'nt give it to you earlier or on time....thats
why i wanted to make it up to you....but a little problem ruined it a tinst bit...sorry...it's still painful...OU-EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
i'm turning to be a junkie now...RESIST SHARON, RESIST!
1+4-7+3-+3-2+6-27+8-2+66-89+90-2352341+?
that is what i'll be doing this weekend:(
i'm not givin it to you face to face.
i hope you guess its me.
you better.
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that's one way to de-stress....
i found out another way yesterday....
knocking someone's head with a dictionary....
it's fun....
smack!
punch!
i am DE-SRESSING!
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Sunday, September 23, 2007
7:22:00 PM
how long has it been since i've last been here?
long.
pretty long.
things has been changing...
moving along...
in all directions...
the wrong ones...
and the right ones....
more of the wrong ones, i guess...
everything will change tomorrow.
i don't know why exactly i am so afraid...
i know that there is just
something about it?
could it be the attention?
well, that will surely decrease...
and the privillages too....
i know it is a selfish mindset...
but, it's for me....
life won't ever be the same....
and no one seems to really understand...
i don't know where i'm heading...
i hope i'm not heading down to my grave....
i'm still hoping,
this time with my fingers crossed...
tighly...
the future is uncertain,
to any man...
but there is something
that there is this chance,
that it will be...
more than half,
more than fiffty.
and that,
is apparently tweaking me...
horribly....
at least i will know when i will be
close to knowing...
i hope she doesn't forget....
i really hope she doesn't...
trusting someone.
who let you down,
intentionally or not,
is very hard...
i wish it wasn't...
i wishing you are joining us...
i haven't told anybody my decision
yet
there is this surface that people see
of my decisions
and apparently,
their thinking that way
again.
i guess that it's good
that they think that way,
it just seems to enable me to look
at things from a different perspective.
but i still
i hope that you'll be with us...
i don't know why,
but
i want you to join us...
i know what to do for you,
but my plans are constantly
interupted with the
harsh, cruel reality.
am i to stop?
i don't know.
i really don't know...
i'll go on with it...
i have alot to catch up,
a lot,
it's such a scary thing...
terrifying,
so much so,
that i was ready to bawl,
tears did trickle...
i miss you,
the old you.
i'm still with the hope
that you'll return.
i hope you do, after
10th october.
i hope you'll remember.
i hope you'll remember.
i'm delivering it to you,
somehow.
i'm trying to promise
:()
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Tuesday, September 18, 2007
6:58:00 PM
i got seriously pissed off today...
over things i hate to discuss...
how can someone spread rumours
so easily?
its unbelievable...
ans pretty scary...
argh...
i'm soooo glad that meggs was there to chaeer me up man...
thanks meggs:)
oh my.
i've got alot of things to do...
geography...
science...
the bitch and lou problem...
and all the make up shit story...
that's sooo much bullshit....
okay...
no vulgar words anymore....
i'll just stick to...
!~@#@%$%&*&)*&)*&%@!~#^%#*$
@Q$@!%@#%#$&^&(*^(*^)*%@#~
i hopw you just leave us alone.
and stop trying to break the three
of us up...
we won't...
especially when that's what you want..
i really pity her..
so that's why we are telling her what we think
about you...
this friday...
i know that it is unexpected from
everyone...
especially the DEP...
and everyone else that sets these expectations on us...
we're crashing you down...
for you...
you guys won't believe us now...
but the truth will out..
hopefully...
for all of us to see...
---
stop it.
leave me out of this...
pleeeease........
let it go...
and live your own life without me....
meggs said that i was strong....
we had an arm fight today....
i din't lose....
she din't win...
that means it was a tie:)
You're looking for something you can't find
If you give it up you'll lose your mind
There's always something in your way
But what can you say
You're gonna have a good day
if you're gonna gossip...
then get out...
BYE.
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Monday, September 17, 2007
9:04:00 AM
i havent blogged for an entire week.i am in utter shock...well.it is not usual foe me to be like this...but the CAs did take a toll on me...let me track back key events that occured recently...i really need to do this....bear with it...its going to be long...
history EOYs
well, there was a sickening time constrain...i guess i simply spent far too much time with the first part question that i had to rush off with the rest...worst of all, i probavly would'nt score in that...so yes, it was a complete waste of time...sadly...
drama practical EOYs
this was something, the only exam that i was looking forward to, that i was antiscipating.the audience, the atmosphere, the tension, everything would be climaxing...and finally, the thundering applause...ahhh...it gives one such satisfaction when the audience is entertained...
my scene:the auntie scene with amanda(2/3)
well...we had never forgotten our lines before...that counts from when we memorised them...but on the actual day of assessment itself, there was a tisy hiccup,for which i am pretty gald.lines went missing...and a quick save was made...with which the scene came to an end...i think the blunder was really significant to me...as we had never made a one like this even in our little rehersals...and,i had not expected it---at all.it really dawned on me that anything can happen on stage...uh.talking bout it makes me feel so...eeewwwww....however,i am grateful to " blunder" for giving me another experience:) thank you "blunder"...
over all
i think "i do" went rather well...lights were bright...and the sound was good too...thank you jeanna and...(sound person),sorry i don't know who you are....
church(yesterday)
doryy.jas.tabbs and me were early...we "studied".however, xavier interupted our little girl talk by bringing his male self, sadly.his arrival caused a little hush-hush, which ended in him thinking that we were tslking about him--which we were obviously not of course.he then prodded,like i said guys are thick-skinned, to ask on the topic of the previous coversation...to which tabbs replied "you will get horny if we told you what it is about"
yes, what a horrible retort...o.i forgot to mantion the topic,initiated by dearest doryy,let me just give a BIG clue...science textbook---the coveted chapters(6,7)
like i said, the topic was initiated by doryy(i think it is pretty obvious though...)
yes, and that was church....
this is my reply:
you were facing, not facts, but unwanted opinions.
pretty: what exactly is your definition?well, i contradict with that opinion of yourself. Considering the fact that you are an asian, you have very good features(you've got nice high cheek bonesand a very good complexion and body structure.)why not appreciate them right?
Besides, you don't have to be in any sort of group to get noticed, you'll get noticed by being you, the person who you really are. And if someone has a problem with your personality, it their loss and not yours.
For being tops in the acads, frankly, it doesn't matter. Just gaive it your best shot. That's the most important part. You don't have to have what the other girls have. If you do, how will you be different and unique? How then will you appreciate you unique features?
Scandals...why on earth would you want to have one just because others have one? Why not be the unique one? why not set the trend instead of following the trends? Physical appearnace is no everything my dear, and even if it was, you wouldn't be losing out to anybody in any one way or the other.
You're just very lost, i guess.
If the things you like are boring, why does it interest you? Unless something is interesting to you, you would not be interested by it...and that proves that you have unique taste, which you somehow, sadly, fail to see.
What's so fun in following trends anyway? Isn't it so unoriginal? So then, why do it?
Distinct physical attributes? Doen't a slim figure,that girls covet,mind you,count?
Distinct personality attributes? Doesn't a forgiving personality count?
And if you are looking for a a talent or gift, you definitely have one in writing and another in acting...
so i really hope that you hve a changed opinion on yourself now...and i do know a bunch of girls who will always, always appreciate you they way you are, the DEP girls.
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Monday, September 10, 2007
9:44:00 AM
meow...i am at the tkg library now...with charu beside me:D
ahhh...school holidays are over.meow....and we ahve histoy this week...o man...
saturday...rather slack...i wnet to the library with mei...and i surprisingly studied and completed chapter 7 there:)
sunday.yes.we made up.actually we made of on saturday night.and sms conversed the night away.met hanis.she camt to canteen to "study" with me.well,i did the studying.she did the talking on the phone and the distracting me part.and jas overslept though i gave her morning call...uh.annoying.and when she finally came after repeated threats in her voicemail, we went to the emo toilet to pai zhao:)and there.i saw the kawaii side of hanis(:0)and the sick side of jas.well. they were taking all tese spastic pictures while i was,sadly,tumbling on the walls over and over again.my my, whatever happened to me in the company of those 2...i-dont-knows....
and then there was service.it rocked.and the big guys jumped and jumped.and so did ann and rebb and trishy and...jenna...and...all....that cell girls always bully me....ESP ANN BOO AND REBB!the last service they pulled my ribbon...this service they poked me from the hole in the chair(not created by me)and lots of other weird stuff.na got bullied my cherry...and jas once again,sabotaged me....
patrick loh(speaker)"what is your idea of a church on fire"
jas(spastard)"ermmm...errrr....sharon...what is the answer"
sharon(me)"(laughs...)(laughs even more at the exasperated look on jas' face)"
patrick loh(speaker)"c'mon...just give it a shot..."
jas(spastard)"(points to sharon)"
patrick loh(speaker)"pkay then,what do YOU think is a church on fire "
sharon(me)"i am not sure..."
and then... everyone laughs....
moooooooooooooo....goes the cow....
i have nothing else to add/say...
25 miutes to recess...
meow!
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Friday, September 07, 2007
8:13:00 PM
rush hour.
dinner soon.
history again today.
i have left chapter 7 and 8.
then i can proceed to revision....
sadly.
i neglectled ALL the other subjects....
:0
well,yes.nerds are supposed to stay at home...just becayse i do better than you in school and get uptight over my grades.it does not equate me to being a nerd.in fact.any student should be worrying about their grades.like i said....SHOULD...and well i am,so that is perfectly normal and i don't see why you have to call my absolutely normalcy....weird,or otherwise.maybe austrailia is better for you.maybe you should just leave.why wait.just go now.you always do claim that europeans are better in this and that...so why not now...o yes,i forgot that old excuse of yours...your dad...ahhh...i see....well whatever it is,stop calling me nerd and asking me to do stupind things with you.go to do it yourself.and when you've landed in trouble.don't expect me to come helping you.and worst of all,dont say that i dint warn you.simple!
whatever.actually.i don't know.do i want it,or don't i?if i don't know, who exactly does?
they were flying, flapping freely in the wind.and the wind, so refreshing.especially after all that mugging.so they continued to flap,frelly.multi-coloured triangles,whaich bore the different symbols of the nation.i suddenly felt so happy.those triangular cloths.they were so mesmerising,that it slowly began hypnotising.as my pony flutered in all directions, i began walking forward.and when i had to change my coarse of path,i slowly realised that all this only existed because of the wind.and once that was gone,all this would be gone as well.so then i turned away.that was another form of a bubble of happiness.it can pop anytime.its a good thing i turned away before they wind died down.we face all these in everyday life.some of us turn let go the bubble,before it pops.others let go,when it pops.some never let go,even after it pops.and yet some,have never even seen the bubble...
dad is talking to grandparents.
its not that smooth sailing for them though.
pray.
doryy won't be coming to church on sunday.
:(((((((((((.
she left for camp today.
and it only ends on sunday.
1 pm.
just when service ends.
arghhhh.
have fun at the camp doryy.
cant sms her.
well...
its a camp afterall....
:(
:(
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Wednesday, September 05, 2007
1:02:00 PM
why yes, i am not supposed to be here.or anywhere else.except infront of that historical history book.and yes,i shall make myself scarce.well, not from the computer.just from everything else.i think i'll take back what i said yes.well yes, i did promise.can't promises be withdrawn?no they cant syas the other half...just think a million times before you next promise someone....that counts off on peer pressure they put on you...well you don't exactly have to cave in.that's if you can help it....but can you?
i soo tired of this...i think i should be happy that you are leaving...well, to be honest.our friendship is fake.it never was really really real to begin with.do you see that?or an io the only one seeing all this?!well, why cant you open your eyes for once?!why must you keep clowning around?!and i know i won't tell you all this in real life...cos i know we can't.i really want to...but i know that we can't.why can't you be 'to one' for a while?what exacly is your problem everytime we talk about that?!if you have a problem, just say it!and if you don't want to, then don't expect me to react to your feelings....cos you never told me and i am sick of reading in between the lines.i ain't dealing with your nonsense.yes,i am harsh with this for the first time...and do you know why?!its simply the plain truth that you have never known anything!you just drift along aimlessly with this fake front that you expect everyone to believe,and worst of all,all these people do...well i am not falling for it!its either you be real or....we're through.i mean it...
what are you trying to do?
so what if i don't comply?!you cant force me too....and for the love of christ, stop using the guilt trick...i am not falling for it...i'll just ask you to snap out of it!
promises...
they come and they go...
you just have to appreciate thoses who fulfill theirs...
and forget those who forget about it...
the 3 of you better keep your promises...
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Tuesday, September 04, 2007
7:55:00 PM
its amazing how one can make a mistake about someone and then tell that someone not to make the miastake that one hath made.well yes.people make mistakes.apparently.some just make more mistakes that the rest of the players in life.and then get a smack of unwanted, pitiful glares, smirks and bookings.it is not exactly legal...but then again, is it illegal?a thought to ponder...it really sets one thinking...
assumptions.are they the same as dreams/wishful thinking?if no, what exactly is the difference?
ratatouille.
watched today.
will comment about it tommorow.
i need to call up people.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEL MARY JOSEPHAKA MY DEAREST MEI MEI!
i forgot to mention this...
i met rose last fri...
do you see me smile big?
yes, you do!
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Monday, September 03, 2007
3:56:00 PM
btw.i do not have FRIZZY hair.
nice one.
♥ 3:01:00 PM
Didn't think that I would feel this pain
Until I saw the stranger that was you
Whatever happened to our innocence
And that something that you said about being friends
Tell me how
Help me say the words out loud
Could it be
That nothing's gonna change
Cuz time has got a way of taking back
Everything you thought you had
Can you see?
The girl you used to be
The one I lost when I let go of you
Or whatever happened to...
Mary Jane
I need to wake up from this state of mind
The situation is a staying kind
I gotta get your memory out of my head
Would you catch me if I had to fall
Would you even find the time without it all
Tell me how
Help me say the words out loud
Could it be That nothing's gonna change
Cuz time has got a way of taking back
Everything you thought you had
Can you see?
The girl you used to be
The one I lost when I let go of you
Or whatever happened to...
Mary Jane
Cuz time is taking back
Everything I thought we had
Tell me how
Help me say the words out loud
Could it be
That nothing's gonna change
Cuz time has got a way of taking back
Everything you thought you had
Can you see?
The girl you used to be
The one I lost when I let go of you
Or whatever happened to...
Mary Jane
Or whatever happened to...
Mary Jane.
when i heard the song.
i thought of you.
and all the things we did together.
and then i thought of the shirt you gave me.
so i took it out.and hugged it.
and i realised.
that i hated the sleeves.
i never wore it before.
maybe because of the sleeves.
or maybe because it is too big for me.
so i continued listening.
and soon.
i found tears.
and then.
i decided to forget bout
everything.
but before anything
i stared at it.
i was very preety.
there was pink.
i like pink.
and there was baby blue.
i like baby blue.
but then again.
there was the sleeves
which i hid.
i hate the sleeves.
and so i folded it.
and that is alll
there is to it.
that is all.
that i want to believe.
i guess i wont ever
throw this shirt away.
or give it away
or ever ever wear it.
maybe because of the sleeves.
maybe because of the size.
maybe because of the memories we shared.
or maybe because it was from you
i will only wear it
at amy cost
if we get back together again.
i hope we will.
i have always hoped.
and i awalys will.
i hope you don't forget.
o whatever happened to
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♥ 2:40:00 PM
i havent blogged for long.
i shall now update my life.
yes.
i am going to rant about everything.
so that i can remeber what happened to mr these
4 days.
fri.
teachers' day.
forgot to make cards.
shucks!
concert.
gloria and cyn-dance
siaw ee and nat-2/7& performance
and it was nats bdae!
HAPPY BDAE NAT!
then yadada.
ms izrina-trendiest teacher!
that was soooo expected.
ms lim-most dramatic teacher!
haha...
ms su-friendliest teacher!
really?!
*no comment*
then we went to st hildas.
saw ex ppl.
dint really talk.
got scolded my esther and ariel.
[i dint recognise them]
they were pissed
i just smiled sheepishly
pai seh.
sorry guys!
you changed...
PRETTY
toured till my legs ached.
saw ms goh.
she remembered me.
P1-P2 teacher.
she dont remeber manda.
:(
then we went tm.
and then i slept when i reached home
ZZzzzz...
saturday
history.
and then.
i cried.
when i listened to click five's
MARY JANE!
sunday.
[doryy's fave part]
she apparently
dragged me and jas.
to the BB dorm camp room
and made us play black jack with
a bunch of SMELLY
boys!
OMGoodness!
they stank for heavens sake!
but oh no!
she insista they dint.
jk had braces on.
xj became fat.
ck was always fat
ws-jas cant stand him!
and as for the other guy...
i dont know his name!
monday.
today!
history.sis and mom baking cake.
watching rat-a-too-e
tonight.
mei's bdae tomoro!
hehe...
