today is the first day of the week AGAIN....
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Monday, July 30, 2007
9:39:00 PM
today is the first time that i did not give in to blooging during my free period...but i played with charu and sreya on this tickles.com website of quizes thing...i took this test that said i was i brat...and charu was sent to fits cos of that...like wth...later i saw hanis.who apparently took the same test and got the same result....o ya...charu made me to this test..that dalai lama thing...and some of the things were soooooo true lah...and some were soooooooooo not...still.vey fun...then it was schooool than.yabababayayayaybababa.then after school i had to ''ditch'' hanis for my vice sports captain duties...omg.under the hot sun.watching seniors run...and picking up the two bright red bean bags over and over and over and over again....then we ahd to speed up and then it rained and then we moved to the void deck and i could finally go home...came home.drank my floridas.dint eat kiwi though...ate my rusks too..gosh i love thoses.thanks grandma...all this while watching the tyra banks show and reading megans sappy smses bout her match and our gg test and the show she was watching....about some stupid guy she mentioned and continued rattling on....that girl is soooooooooo blur....and we both laugh at juan and jo in claa...those 2 spastards lah....hahaha..they came up with this silly song for zany...and thanks to them i fulfilled my duties again..........my mum needs the comp now..and i need to sleep...good night to all...byies......
ladedededa....
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Sunday, July 29, 2007
10:25:00 PM
i'm planning to move soon..like after the exams...and then know one will know...and that is just what i want...today was church service.and my dad told me to sit together like with the family and all...but then jas baby ass camr along and told me to sit with her.ya.not like i dint want to and all.but like.dad?!hello?!i then gave in to ass bay pressure and sat with her way behind my parents and still got caught by my mother who then told my da who then gave me a pissed lookie...but dint scold me later on...i think he forgot...so ya...lucky me man....then.in the middle of the service.one of my black RUBBER band broke...than.after bout 10 minutes.then other 1 broke....leaving my hair untied...and i hate leaving my hair untied lah....and ass was laughing at my misery...but made sure that my hair was neat...with me freaking out alongside....ah....then.another silly incident...ass baby had to swallowe down a couple of pills which sent me to fits...in the middle of a church service...and ya...i got alot more to say but my mum needs the comp....argh...why now...i got soooooooo much more to say...actually.blogging is the way i find out my feelings so ya...i NEED to blog...to express myself i guess.i think.i dont know.....my sis and i just watched shut up and drive the other day...and becos of that vid.my lil sis thinks that rihanna is skimpy...just 1 vid only lah...ah.that girl.so annoying yet soo difficult to scold cos of that silly smile and the load of excuses she gives to let her off....still.it doesnt work always...o wellies...a week of tests ahead man...God bless to everyone else toooo.....byieos......
ps
sorry hunnie.dint watch that vid...want to sleeep and all the tests...hope its a valid reason....:D!!!!
wahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahazzzzzzzzzzzz!
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Saturday, July 28, 2007
6:58:00 PM
omg.i just viewed her friendster profile.she is a total camwhore man....she smiles like the same way for all the pics.but golly she can dress well man...so the model type...i studied geography and talked to hanis.who couldn't be bothered to study lah....and my dad came today...haha.
brought back sooo much goodies....my grandma sooo sweeeeet.she even packed along some eggs laid by her 2 chickens man...and all 14 of the eggs survived thanks to the wonderful packing of my grandma...i found some pics of my cousins man...and some of when we went back home...shall post my cute cousins...actually.one of the babies is my auntie.as in ya...she is like 2 years.but is still my auntie lah...late baby...but she is like soooo cute lah...with make-up and all.and damn smart...and i shall het back to geog like my dad wants me too....i shall listen to him and be guai....shall continue later with the pics...hopefully.good luck to everyone foe the CAs man...haha...i know we hate to study...but just do it for another week or so.and then slack...remember to study ppl...esp. hanis...my ass pal...wahahaha...byeiez....
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Friday, July 27, 2007
9:15:00 PM
my mood was weird today.i taoed you a bit.i'm not sure why.i think i'd rather break away now slowly.then do it next year.i just don;t want to get hurt.i know you know what i mean.you always do deep down.i know you know this now too...still.i'm sorry.i am geeting better slowly now.slowly.but still.i;m surprised i'm picking up.so i'm happy.i hope you are too.i guess you will be.soon.i hope.i think.iguess.i hope.
the weekend is finally here.my dad is coming home tomorrow.yay.then i'll have someone to hear me whine and teach me my school stuff and take me out...hopefully but i dont think this weeken oe the next but the following.still.i miss my dad.ahhhhhhhhh.i am sucked into vampire knight.i am at book 2.not really in the middle yet cos of all the homework and cas and all.but still.i wanna get into it asap.i just love getting into the world or cross acad man...so...sucked in....i am two-timing vampire knight though.with fairy cube...nat offered me the book with endless compliments.while hanis poured out how much it sucks on the other ear.not gotten into the story yet so i havent made my judgement yet.btw hanis.sorry that i cant study with you man...pftttttttt.not my fault though.but i'm not sure if can study with you wothout you talking bout gerard or us arguing about whether zero or kaname is hotter.though they both are just fictional characters.to think that i once stereotyped manga...never judge a book by its cover.i guess its pretty true in this case....my head hurts....my tummy is hurting again...rushing to the toilet....aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!
argh....
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Thursday, July 26, 2007
5:07:00 PM
i finished vampire knight 1.i dint understand everything but it was fun on the whole.so.to understand everything.i shall read it again.yes.i shall find time.natalie passed me fairy cube.she said it was deep.sooo deep that i cant understand it.omg.hanis dint like the book.i'm not sure like like it either.i maen like.i dont understand it.still.i'll try to.some of the drawings change in certain parts of the story.and most of them look all the same to me.btw.i performance was not very good today.messed it up.all the mike's fault.i mean.we've NEVER NEVER rehearsed it with mikes before.so ya.not very good.and after that.inged my head on the wall.it was sooo painful.it literally felt my 'inner head' vibrating against my brain cells.i want my dad to come hamoe.i like it with him around.i havent talked to him since monday.i think.well.i changed my breakfast flavour today.chocolate chunk.very nice.it dint get me sick of it.cant wait to eat it tomorrow.
i studied history just a while ago.dint meet hanis to study.arggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh.forbided again.no internet.well.confined to time limit.no chinese drama show bad influence.reading vampire knight.changed my com user backgroung to the cross academy uniform and she's not happy.like what am i supposed to do right.what i like you dont like.then waht.i change to your liking.over my dead body lah...like its the you know me....irritating man....almost gave up n myself on history but am back on track now.hopefully.i simply cant get alll those stuff into my head lah...soooo boring.....arghhhhh.i wanna learm to draw the cross academy uinform...i seriously find it the hottest uniform.its better than a pinafore at least..........pft.......i shall go find drawing aids and then go back to history.my precious internet time is ticking away.....tick.tick.still ticking...ciaos people!!!
my life-changing day--->but i'm not telling you bout it though...
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Wednesday, July 25, 2007
7:17:00 PM
she can do it.i cant.like wth right?so unfair...never mind.i've got other things to get off my mind...like vampire night.that book is nice man.thks siaw ee...hanis is still in shoch that i'm reading it...i'm like still whatever-ing her...i still think.never mind.i like the way i am now...much happier.and i love kaname's...personality?!i dont exactly know what that word means and ya.i am like in love with yuki's uniform.i think it is hot...i wish we were wearing that.ahhhh.i still think it was very biased of you.and you arent doing anything bout ie either.this is'nt a coherent post.it simply does'nt flow.but i like it.so you'll just have to figure out all my postings.i havent talked to my dad for like sooo bloody long lah...cos he is like out of town...so ya...he is on the phone with my mum.and my sis is having tuition right beside me...i am going into another of my teenage phases...but this time.i dont think i am not going to get over or out of it.and i dont eant to either.i think i like it like this.much safer.i am not exactly sure why.but i think i know.frankly.is what she said true?nothing?nothing at all?well.is it really like that.well.at least she has time to pen them down.still.that was very demoralising.my heart literaaly sank.why?
there must be something.i don't believe there is nothing.i am far better than she thinks.i've got nothing to prove.i'm just stating the facts.and facts are true.so ya.i know they are.and for once in my life.i cant be bothered if anyone cares.my life.i'll run it.my way.so stop listing my future life cos it ain't working out that way cos it'll be what i want it to be.todayis a life'changing day.and i am able to think right for once.and i hopr to continue too.so i shall take this chance to study history .its rare that my brain is functioning they way it is today.gotta use this chance...i wanna finnish vampire knight soon.vampires are sooo cool.they way she potarys it.i just know that anything is great.its just they way you look at things.things aren't goona change for you.you have to learn to survive...i shall be transported back into time in early singapore now.ciaos people.
my horrible day...
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Monday, July 23, 2007
9:27:00 PM
everything went wrong after school.arghhh.my dad came to pick my books up to office and then to home later.wahich shld have been at like 7/7:30pm+++.but he came back at 4:30+++.why.cos he had to came a plane back to home cos of my someone someone i dont really know past away.my condolences to my relatives but like.arghhh.going now?!in like the middle of everything...i was very sad.i dont like it when my dad is not in town.it sucks big time lah...i am a daddy's girl now lah...so it aint helping me at all...with all the other stuff at the back of my mind...and this list is already long enough but it seems to grow...and grow byt the seconds.minutes.......
i was sooo freaking sad when i found.like i was supposed to be happy for you and all....but i really cant.i was very happy for bern...but when it came to you.i just simply cant bring myself to do the same...if not to a fraction of what i did..i just cant....and gosh i cried...i mean like duh...then i think to myself...you've worked so hard for this and all.but now i am like that....ahhhh.i cant stand thinking of next year lah.....makes me feel soo uneasy...new class.new teachers...and new friends...its fun making new friends...but not when you have to lose the good old ones...that sucks and that makes me want to not make new friends,which is'nt helping either.i hate to be in this sort of thing.i mean.what am i possibly supposed to do?!n i cant force myself to talk to you about this...i know we've been friends for sooo long and all.but anything but this....i rather talk about that than this...and you know how much i hate talking bout that...so ya...i'd rather i not know about all this in the first place...and thanks for letting me be the first one in the whole world to know...though it dint really help.i apprecite it...man,i really cant stand being in this position...it leaves you no choice and no escape route...it like being stuck smack right in the middle of a blob of glue...all i hope is that the glue melts....maltes now...now and forever.............
i can know *** feelings even before i know***.i guessed it right on the dot...i mean...like right on the dot...with the help of *** blog lah...but still.right on the dot?!no easy feat man....i wonder what will happen tmrw...i hope things will go on fine....but i dont know...i just gotta wait n see.............
today i went to photocopy notes.and at the place...behind it actually.they were fogging the place cos of the many cockroaches and like ewwwwwwwwwwww.there was a cockroach on this stationary boz thing and i told the auntie and she was like where.where?and i was like there.there.and then the uncle pointed to my leg and started saying there.and i pathetically shrieked.and like loudly...like.eeeeeeeee.and then the uncle laughed.and said he was kidding.and i was like....arghhh...like in some shop getting mocked...and it was like sooo not funny...ah.........poor me man...helpless in that shop with no one to save meee....ahhhh.so noy funny mannn...i shall just forget about it lah....yes...and dont remind me if you read this and ya....
now i am on the phone with hanis....lalala...and that hanis is asking me to take ice-skating.but i prefer swimming.and she is giving me a billion reasons to go her....she even said you get nice legs...aiyoyoyoyo..........
btw...cockroaches suck...eeeew.thoses creeeepy things...and now hanis is mocking me........but she hates tthem too.esp. when they fly...but she claims not to be as bombotic as me...like i am?!actually...like i am NOT?she says that i am preppy...ami ?peppy?me?are you sure?hanis saya yes...and i sat whatever...i shall stop typing our conversation down...so YOU dont know...and hanis like her eyes....and is mocking me cos i wear specs...whatever...but she says she did not...now she imagines gerard in specs...and says he looks hot...now she found out that her hair is not curly but wavy...took her 14 years or so to for her to realise.that what she says...now she wants to marry gerard...how ambitious....now she is weirded out by what someone said...like she should care...sge like curlsss...now she is asking herself to shut up...not to me at least....hahahzzz.telloing your hair to grow longer....pale complexion????like wth lah...talking to herself instead of me OVER THE PHONE???nowq she is insulting of being that steotyped thing...yay..she finnally said i was not that...but preppy again...what;s her prob mann...i dont know....do you...now she wants me to dance with her...not with her but...but take lessons with her...she ballet she says but hip hop or belly dancind...and i'm like what????yoga...pilates...she's nuts.now bueaty school.now la salle
i better stop talknig to her...
she says bye to preppy me...bye hanis!!!seee ya..
bye to everyone else tooo...nitesss!!
♥ 9:47:00 AM
don't burst my balloon...
i never found one like this before...
and i like this balloon...
even though i only saw it once...
it seems like a nice balloon...
so...i hope to find this balloon...
cos i've never found one like this before...
so don't ruin it by bursting it...
and if you find it in the sky...
please tell me so that i can it again...
then...
i'll see what to do...
i am at free period
♥ 9:10:00 AM
hey.ya.i am at the library at free period.de english test was quite ok.i just visited the xanga site thing.so christiany.not that it is bad.but a little weird.i like weirded by that now.i have never seen a blog post like that in my life.sooo optimistic man...never knew such ppl existed.i now doubt if i can even have a decent conversation.aiya.a bit de weird lah...hanis is like mocking me and all...it is actually good.VERY good.but still.a bit de weird....i am seriously weirded out...after all.17?!that's like older than me....seems nice though.still.i dont really know bout all this since i have not been in such a situation before.dont exactly want to be in one either...but it will be a new experience...i better ask jas n raj n hanis bout all this first before i do sth stupid.....ahhh.i am weirded out.hanis was too when she first saw it...at least it is lah...so i am in a way lucky.yay then....still...hope ** dosent see this post lah...i doubt that ** even noes.but still.** noes my hp number...ahhhh.i dont know anything....
i realised that i got no feelings now.i am just plain acting everything out.numb.and feeling-less.i dont know what to feel so i look at people around me and feel what they feel.which is weird.maybe.there is something wrong with poor me...i also dont know.if i dont.how will anyone else know????but still.if no one knows.then how will i know???but i must know....ahhhhh.but i dont know how to find out either...so i'll just not know anything?!that even weirder but o wellies.what else can i do?i dont know lahhh.i am sooo........arghhhh.never mind...if you know...or if you know someone who knows.tell me...yay.then i will know too.i am confusing myself...ahhh.change of thinking...okies.
i shall study that subject that i totally cant stand now...gosh i suck at that..... HISTORY KILLS MY BRAIN CELLSpoor me.i wanna swim now...like i did on sat...36 laps....yay...but i cant cos of history....i shall go now...drones off later.but i'll try not to....ahhh.bye
ps
i did it again
i am hungry...tummy growls:''growl!"
i havent blogged for long...2 days to be exact...
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Sunday, July 22, 2007
10:12:00 PM
whatever.there was church today.i dint like service.worship sucked.as in the songs and all.they were all so unknown lah...like seriously ALL but.1.the servant king song...i like that song.but other than that.they were all new.and i was moody only during worship.and my6 mins was like floating to everything...drifting away but i tried hard to keep myself back in place though it dint work.still.i tried.than we went for lunch and all that.bought new school shoes.napped.played badminton with dad and sis.not very fun...i was like sooo tired man...and i still am...ahhhh...
me n jas took lotsa spas pics...and i was like supposed to post them here but am too lazt to...anyway...i kinda lost the wire so ya...cant upload even if i wanted to...
i am soooo hooked to jesse macartney's just so you know...so nice lah...just so you know.lah.and i am not the only in love with this song...jas is crazy over it with me tooo....that spas ass.so fun to be with her.cant imagine if we were really in the same class.we'd probably fail our subjects...haha.miss her...i am tired....
its not gone.i just checked.what were you telling me?i know you are not biased and you are trying hard not to be.i appreciate it.i know it takes alot from the position you are in.i shall out my promise.well.afterall.i DID promise.still.you are really so weird...and difficult to understand man...aiya..i shall take all this lightly.and i hope your life will improve...i know you are not exactly enjoying it soo.i think it will pass over really soon i guess.hopefully.still....i dont know what to sy any longer.so ya.byez.n gd luck
i dont know who you are.and your existence is constantly at the back of my mind.i hvt told anyone bout all this yet.i shall think for myself on this one.i know people may not be happy and all.but so long as i am.and.in a way you are.its pretty fine...still.was that from you?and was that really you?i dont know.tuesday will be soon here.i hope you are real.
DONT BURST MY BALLOON OF HAPPINESS.i mean it.i really do.
i dont know what is up with up.period.i dont know and you cant force me to know cos my brain cant take it any longer....
i shall be happy tomorrow...if i can....ciaos.nites!jia you for the weel ahead
ps
i carried out my promise already.......cos you wanted me to...........argh...there i go again............
THIS POST IS NOT BIASED
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Friday, July 20, 2007
7:43:00 PM
i was sooo excited to go to school to today.yes.yes.cos i would miss school for something fun---drama!!![duh?!]but all was in a way ruined when we lost the competion.not being a sore loser but.ya.our supporters WER GREAT!!!all of them agreed that we beat them thru acting and all BUT we need'nt meet the judges...the wanted creativity and ours and ACIs were the ''ordinary''
so ya.we lost.sad...tough.VERY.
then there was dep.dint really enjoy it very much.cos of needless reasons...my ass was at PI...but still i managed to catch her song dance thing...yay....whatever...dint enjoy these lessons like i used to...complicatons by the millions...and i hate all this.i dont really really say it but ya...
i never know just what you are thinking.but you do...only at times though.the not important things.but you seem to leave out all the important details...on purpose?!mean for me to say but still.ya.ya.ya.what was i to do today today then?!just stand there like a lampost?!i cant bring myself to that...verge of hating but then you come with this cry.which i cant give in to.no matter how hard i try.i am not angry with you.i may just be in denial like you said.i just cant seem to get these right somehow...i try to though.but i still cant.i want to.but i REALLY cant.you are the sort of person i can relate to but...its just not right ok?!?!?!?!i dont know why...is it guilt?!well i cant help it.well its just that maybe i read tooooo much to everything...but can i help it?!?!?!?!that's just me...why cant YOU do something for once?!y always me?y?y?y?y?y?y?y?y?y?y?y?y?y?y?y?y?yi dont know...i am waiting.for you to tell me the answers.for you to start first without me.i am.i hope i wont wait forever.....that's now up to you to decide........
It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
That's coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you
I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
And once upon a song
Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Because I liked the view
When there was me and you
I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind
Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you
not everything applies but i know you know what does and what does not..........
found more...waiting.......
HAPPY BITHDAY TO JEANNA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
kudos...gtg.......love to all the people i love...hehez!!!
i am soo tired
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Thursday, July 19, 2007
7:23:00 PM
morning was ruined by an uproar in the house...like whatever man...school sucked much today.dint run 2.4 because of the rain...what a waste...the weather was perfect...megan agrees.o. they won for softball.but megan said she dint play well.cheer up megs.science was the reflection and refraction thing AGAIN...soo darn boring.now i am assured that i wont take physics...a horrible lulliby that sets me to "sleep" mode.everyone got back science paper except for me...left too early for drama....wonder how i did...there was boring english and chinese later...prefer chinese lessons to eng now....not being mean but she also sets me to "sleeeep" mode.rehearsed for the play.tomorrow is the big day.PI for jas.megs.yiting.bernice and all the other prefects.competition for us tooo...and it is also jeanna's bithday...wow....gonna study again SOON....
wow.now you realise.sorry?i may accept it on the surface.the outermost.maybe inside too.still.i am trying to think of something else now....dont wanna get into this sort of thing again.
i like it now.ignoring.maybe.that is all i really wanted.cos i know you pay more attention then.i am not stupid.i can read body language and all. so i will know.i know you are down.but i shant comfort.i will not.maybe.i think that it is good for you like this.i may sound evil.but if you look at it the way i do.i know that i am not.your views were very important to me last time.but not anymore.and i am really glad for that too.i like what i saw today.ignoring outrightly.i can even visualise it now.replaying.over and over again.shall dedicate a song to you here when i have the time.last time.it would be my priority.but now.the opposite.i like things this way...*sharon smirks*
i really want to find you.i think it would be nid=ce to make a new friend.maybe soo.maybe never.but i'll try my best since you are the first.that was specially to you.no one knows yet.i am tha only one...so far....
bye...i guess i better go now...break a leg for tmrw's performance...go 17!yay!
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Wednesday, July 18, 2007
9:14:00 PM
i had a great day with raj and hanis...was really crazy with them....had lots of fun...shall saay the things i wanna say first...
whatever.if you have to sy all that.tell it to your darling straight in the face...no relationship works without trust you know???or was it just to show me.or was it to get the picture clear.i dont know.i just wish i never met you in the first place...this time...damn you.
it would be interesting to know you.but it'll be difficult though...haha.we just need to wait n see.btw you seem rather nice to me n my friends...you really seem approachable...being noticed.....
you cleared my friends ''problem'' in a way...haha...thankz man!
everyone has that person.i am not sure who mine is...whatever and whoever...i need it/she os even **.well.come to me soon.man..i want you soon...actually now to be specific....
talking to raj...she is coming to my class tmrw morning...yay...i got company with an ass...haha...she laughs too...GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG...................
the grass gows and grows and grows and grows and grows and gows and grows and grows and grows and grows and grows and grows and ...
i hope i dont get a tummy ache...ouchies!!!
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Tuesday, July 17, 2007
8:41:00 PM
i am like supposely to be chatting with that assy friend of mine...but i cant seem to find her anywhere...pftttt....shit...i need to log off the comp soon.told my dad i would...jas is still not online lah...haiyazzz.okies.today.first period lit...yadayada.then math test.confident for the first time in my life.assuring.then it was science.reflection.refraction.and what not.BORING!then i packed my bags.sweet jeanna came all they way to the fourth floor just to wait for me...thks jeanna...or jessie...i wonder.then we went to HCI.there.me n jas had this major big yet small argument over some misunderstanding that i clearly predicted...she thought i was gossiping bout her...like SOOO wth right...arghhh.that BLUR BLOCK...then Hanis kinly sotred the mess out.she kept repeating that she dint doubt me.but was just...i cant remember anymore...btw.jas is SILL NOT online.argh..then it was all the performances.tk was first.it was good.funny.hahaz.then it was fairfeild methodist with this bimbotic manly thingy performance.raj kept insisting that the gut was hot.no one made a comment.then she asked me n i said yes.well he did have 2 eyes.1 nose n 1 mouth.i think his outfit was good.then there was another which caught jas' attention.she liked the tao-ness.haha.then it was orchid park with this wheel-chir thing.very abstract.raj found the lead cute too n got his number and his entire profile and they began smsing.rah sadly old us that he alreadt has a gf.poor thing.she also found out bout the first one.he has a gf too.sad raj.then it was st andrew's and someone's attention was caught....JASMINE YAP XIN YEE!!!hahaz.the gut was very tall n cute lah.but like whatever.i was laughing at her all the time and raj soon knew that jas saw someone cute and i nearly gave it all away......but saved jas in the end..poor jas.still no one has guessed the guy YET.they all think it is this popular guy....but not true...try harder.i hope the drama dint look too despo though...there were wavings and screamings and gigglings...all to the opposite genders...and it would have made a bad impression on the school and all but o wellies.we dint mean anyharm so ya...not our fault.i think i better go...NOT WAITING FOR JAS ANYMORE...shes still not online...grrr.watch out jas....gonna get you tmrw...nites everyone.
i dont know who you are.but i think it will fun?!kkz.ur cca training is sooo interesting.so is your personality.i got no clue of who you are.you seem like an interesting character/individual/person though.we can be just friends for now...hehez.i sound chimmy..i mean chim.anyway.dont tire out yourself...
i love eating kiwi!!!
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Monday, July 16, 2007
9:17:00 AM
do you see what i see? wu zun holding 2 kiwies...yay.but i still cant seem to figure out what he is doing....o wellies.all that matters is that he looks hot [as usual...ahhhh...]and kiwies taste super nice and they are good for healt.yays.JASMINE YAP---face it.wuzun is HOT!hahazz.will tag later kkz?byes
♥ 9:00:00 AM
i am at free period now.shall do math immediately after this.just read wu zun' sblog.he is like soooo tired....so he nvr blog for like ages....sad.my wrist hurts...ouch..there is chinese test later...kristen and sarah and 2/3 is having it right now...they borrowed dictionaries from our class.soo many ppl dint bring dictionaries.even some of the guai ones...but i remembered. surprisingly.
saw you through the windows.you dint see.i dont think you did.well.i dont think you knew i existed there.even if you did.i dont think you'd bother.cant blame you.
why do you stare that weird stare.i feel weird when you do that.so stop it.it is seriously WEIRD.
for now you back off.i hope you back off forever.i really hope you do cos it is a real blessing to me.hope you grant my wish.really hope you do.
Title: Never Take Friendship Personal
There's a hatchet got a knife
When I awoke there was nothing real in this life
But dreams are so intoxicating, (intoxicating)
When you're doing this alone
Gun, rope, brick on the way
But words have no meaning when its you that says
I really do care, no baby I, I really do care!
Innocence gone, never take friendship personal
If you can't hold yourself together
Why should I hold you now?
Innocence gone, never take friendship personal
If you can't hold yourself together
Why should I hold you now?
Once a skeptic, now the critic
And you think that you finally found a place of your own.
Amongst the cold and timid souls
Where only failure knows your name
Look around for the closest to blame
But look no further than the hands beneath your arms
and now your 6 feet down,
buried with, with your passing fame
And fame fame fame fame.
Innocence gone, never take friendship personal
If you can't hold yourself together
Why should I hold you now?
Innocence gone, never take friendship personal
If you can't hold yourself together
Why should I hold you now?
Oh oh oh you lie
Tell me something more than what you've tried to hide
If you can't find your self, then how can I expect to find you.
Oh oh oh you cry
Tell me something more than what you tried
The greatest tragedy is not your death
But a life without reason,
that your life had no purpose
(Life has no purpose!)
Innocence gone, never take friendship personal
If you can't hold yourself together
Why should I hold you now?
Innocence gone, never take friendship personal
If you can't hold yourself together
Why should I hold you now?
Innocence gone, never take friendship personal
If you can't hold yourself together
Why should I hold you now?
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Sunday, July 15, 2007
10:33:00 PM
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:) :0 :! :8 :* ---mixed feelingd for me...
♥ 10:15:00 PM
i am not gona really sat what i feel and think cos i seem to make thinhd very obvious...still it is saddening..in a way my joy is short-lived....ahhh.i wonder how things will be next year...jas in ip?or jas in tk?me taking core geog or me taking drama?it is so interesting thinking...yet scary at the same time...wonder what will happen to them n them?and us and us?this post does not seem to flow...but it does to me....chinese tmrw.math follows....life is a scary cycle.pretty vicious too.piano exam is in the 30th..oops.i dint prastics today...is it supposed to be prasticed or practised.i dont know and cant seem to worry either...cell.i still prefer service.but not for the reasons jas thinks...maybe just a little but not entirely.i want service now....right now...maybe not...i am too tired.wadya expect...brain cells zonked out from thinking...and more thinking.bout everything under the hot yellow sun.math.friends.more math.what to eat.what to do.how to do...aiya....soooo much..and guess what...its the end of my precious weekend once again...tough.like mrs crothers says...i always agree to her'pain is good' but not now.....not not now.tired.actually not really but zonked out.that is the word.ZONKED.pretty word...nice to say..try it>ZONKED>ZONKED>ZONKED>hahaz.i just made myself laugh.actually.not really.i am not making anymore sense cos i got no real feelings now...I AM JUST ZONKED OUT MAN...
ZONKED OUT SHARON=ZONKIE...heheh.that made me laugh.i guess i better get some shut eye now...for the long day/week ahead..wish me all the best....wish you guys all the best.hope you hav enuf energy...before you get ZONKED OUT...nites guys...muacks to all!!!!!
i can smile with reality now :)
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Saturday, July 14, 2007
1:58:00 PM
omg.i was soo happy yest.and still am.ladeeda.no more leeches around.i was so happy that i actually smsed someone to like share my joy with...and thats what the person did...hehez... thanks dude.feeling happy is a nice feeling.yay..spastic-ness is creeping up on me again...just had piano lesson.omg.omg.my exam i like on 30 of aug...ang i hvt learnt everything yet... ahhh.doomsday.i am pretty scared...ahhh.that does really say alot.o wellies.gotta do math again later.for the whole day cos i wanna shop in peace tmrw.hopefully.and i really cant to that with math at the back of my mind.that would just be the most weird thing.i think.still.math.not my best friend.cant really SEE the mathematical stuff.poor poor me.and i just realised that there are birthdy baby in aug...alot that i know...gotta start saving for money cos i am really in need of cash to buy those presies...better start.really SOON...jeanna's is next fri.on the day of our grand finals competition.i really hope we get the top prize.the scholl is omly taking 10% of the $3000 which leaves us with a huge sum of $2700.divided by the 10 of us.$270+the $100 bucks my parents gave=$370.which leaves me to fork out $7.546666666666 to but that sexy red 8GB ipod.ahhhh.i REALLY hope we win....dreamy.dreamy me....ahhh.we really gotta strive to get it though,STRIVE REALLY REALLY HARD...i guess i better go to do math and eat lunch before getting myself into trouble....before i forget.thank you to-the-person-who-shared-my-joy. thanks alot man...and good luck to you to for that math test this tues.good luck yo everyone else to....math textbook.here i come...boo hoo hoo!!!!
i just ran/jogged/walked/crawled 2.5km ++++
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Thursday, July 12, 2007
8:39:00 PM
yes.i really did.sooo tiring.worst of all.i forgot to stretch.i hope i wont get muscle pull.aiya.so pissed today.found out something SERIOUSLYscary.omg.i am so shocked that she would resort to such mathods to satisfy her jealously.i mean like.if you have a problem with what someone else has.either you deal with it.or fight JUSTLY for it.not resort to gossiping and accusing that person of spreading vicious gossip.low of all.spamming.what a cowardly thing to do.if i had to really tell this person what i feel.i would.but.its just a pity that this person has just denied everything bluntly.worst of all.i just cant shake her off.arghhhh.she even sticks to US all the time that she can.LEEEEEECH!o.and she cant spell for nuts.o wellies.i just gotta deal with this cowardly girl headfront JUSTLY.not through some gossip or whatever.but she really got me into deep shit this time....o fishy me....what to do now?har vicious malicious gossips are so scary.but.i am so lucky.i have a couple of really nice friends who told me of this.or else i seriously would have not known...thanks guys.funny that they ranged from all circles of friends.thaks a million guys.but i would like to say their names but i cant to protect their identities.but all the same.i still owe you guys alot.thanks.thanks.from the bottom of my heart.there is dep tmrw.better finish my dinner soon and memorise my script.wonderfully titled ''I DO.''better go now.dad's calling.byes
:) i am still trying to smile
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Wednesday, July 11, 2007
8:37:00 PM
yay.we got into drama of history today.sooo happy.felt unwell again.after dep...o wellies.ate sour power again.my long lost addiction seemed to have ended.it tasted soooo.not-the-usual tastes.sour skittles tooo....maybe my tastebuds got some probs.i am feeling so not myself these days...all these things keep changing.some times for the better.yay.some time for the worse.boo. we just gotta keep it going man...sighs...keeping it going aint really that fun...and it is so not easy.i shall forget what happened.both incidents.i'll just pretend not to remember.but i know that it will be at the back of my mind...the other.i'll just hafta face...i know i just hafta...it'll be weird if i dont.jia youz for me...jas kinda cheered me up...i kinda did that to her too...de girl has to skip PI for competition.poor prefect...at least i dont feel so guity bout not attending...sound a little ****** though but she really slogged her guts out to waer those silly court shoes that give her blisters...poor poor you...hope those blisters disappear...and i am ssooo slow.i just realised that hanis' nickname was the oppostie of that word...kcuf...i was wondering what that stood for...and all you people out there...stop calling me a bimbo...pink does NOT = to bimbo...its just a nice colour that many cant appreciate or like....sadly....dont discrimminate bocos of a girl's favourite colour....thanks berny for giving me that present...that-make=up-keeping-thingy.it had pooh bear...sooo cute.lahdedadadadaz.have to go look at science 1 more time...short trem memory...bleahz...few more hours to my muggings...by everyone
i wonder who that was to
i shall pretend to ignore what happened
you were nice to me today
BYE BYezzzzz!
i hope i am not sick...
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Tuesday, July 10, 2007
7:56:00 PM
bleahz.bleah.bleah.i puked yest.and felt like puking again.arghhh.i only have appetite for fruits.more fruits.and pocky.somehow got this need for pocky.chocolate flavour only though.the strawberry seems very much vomitocious.i have studies the STD chapter.left to study AIDS.pictures are extremely gross though.esp the poor baby.innocently blinded by the gonorrhoea bacteria.poor baby.i hate studying these chapters.makes me feel like puking more.i shall join our dear subhak.shall continue later.shall talk to MCRian now.bleahz.she forgot my url again.pfttttt....okay.i shant blog later.i must study.besides dad confined me to only 15 minutes.tough.
kkz...see you guys 'round...byes.hope i get well
i am going to bathe soon
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Monday, July 09, 2007
7:34:00 PM
ahhh.i studied 3 chapters of science.i shall bathe soon.i am posting cos i am free and i feel like it..hehe
[why did you lie?Was it that much in your ego to be top dog that you had to lie?found out accidentally when i was talking to megan.i am not pissed that you lied only because i always do that to get away with things.but that is the only reason why.that is 1 load of my mind.u helped when there was a need.but there is nothing more to that.i dont care if you know more than others.you are just smart then.its none of my business.and for goodness sake.dont make use of my weaknesses.made me say so much.so so so much.newae.i dont know if you were plain nice.maybe it is just your nature but maybe not.i dont know.i dont know and i dont want to eitherall i gained from this is just tears.wrong illusions.silly illusions.fear. spammings.insecurities.friend or foe.i still dont know.and till now.i dont know why you always compare us together.always me and her.well.it was not all that bad either.i learnt of other things in the world and opened my eyes from my usual blur self.i have been typing out so much.i still dont know why i bother.at leats now i know that i dint leave it hanging like a frail piece of thread in the air.this is the last entry.not a very happy ending but o well.there is nothing symbolic and no sub-text,it is what it is.absolutely no sub-text involved.i shall end like i always did.before evolving.i shall end my usual way.the real usual way.goodnight and God bless.
study hard and drink lots of water.fruits are good for health too.bye.and...hurhur :) ]
[]
congratulations to Eva Longoria n Tony Parker
♥ 9:57:00 AM
they look so cute together right?they guy is the captain of french basketball team and he is the captain.b-ball.hence the height.soooo elongated.the team name is Spurs.guess how they met???they met in the locker room after one of his games...soo modern fairy tale.cliche.i wonder how they kissed...she would have jumped and he would have bent...ahahaha.so funny imagining it.its his first but her second.but the age difference is a bit weird.she is 32 but he is only 25?!thet is a bit weird but still.o well.they look vry cute together.ahhhh.sweet romance.i hope they will stay together unlike most and every other hollywood couple...how dreamy.the guy is very cute in thid pic.but not on his official site...he is the first guy i see that pouts in every other picture taken solo.he seems very gay when alone in pics but like a guy with Eva....weird.any way.even charu says that he is cute...she is gone mad over the harry potter thing.21st of july.stampede in all bookstores worldwide...poor staff.and yes.i really did do science.ask charu.in fact for the first time.we actually studied.she did her eng hw[i already did mine]while i did my cience revision.ang break a leg to drama clubbers.performing their syf production piece.which they proudly received a GOLD!!!
[i hope i do okay.not really very sure if i can do it but i'll try.if you find out who that spammer is.do let me know.it'll be interesting to know which girl is so free to spam...hahaz]
[so low.lower hark again.i really wonder who ia lower.that script lines have soooo much in connection with you wow.thanks shakespeare...hope i spelt your name correctly...hehez]
i guess i really better go now...byez!!!
i am having free period now
♥ 9:01:00 AM
i shall do science soon...very soon.right after this post.i am talking to her.i shall not.even if i have anymore problems.i shall not.my problems.i have to solve it.fair enough to convince myself.i must do this myself without any human persons help.that is that.anyway.why should i care if people know who or what i am talking about.if i am like this.nothing they say is gonna change.if i am like that.like they say is gonna change me either.i am me.and i am proud to be me.and no ones gonna chanhe that.so gossip all you want.bitch all you want.invade all you want.but i aint gonna give up anything.or gonna change for any ones sake.so if you are trying to bring me down.you'll be just wasting your time.
Majesty(here i am)
Here i am humbled by Your Majesty
covered by Your grace so free
here i am.knowing that i'm a sinful man
covered by the blood of the Lamb
Now i've found.the greatest love of all is mine
since You laid down Your life
the greatest sacrifice
Majesty.Majesty
Your grace has found me just as i am
empty-handed but alive in Your hands
Majesty.Majesty
forever i am changed by your love
in the presence of Your Majesty
here i am humbled by the love that You give
forgiven so that i can forgive
here i stand.knowing that i am Youe desire
sanctified by gory and fire
now i've found the greatest love of all is mine
since You laid down your life
the greatest sacrifice
[i am not emo.i have never been.am not.and will never be.]
[crying out for attention is pathetic enough.what's more screaming out from an enclosed bus window like an idiot? sadly.i am not the only one who thinks this way...so for crying out loud.in both ways.metaphorically.and realistically.i wonder if i invented those words?!?!]
i am officially gonna do science.chapter 13.here i come....dreadfully
hope you guys have a pleasant day.rememver to study for science
i swam 32 laps yest
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Sunday, July 08, 2007
10:07:00 PM
yes i really did.its been long since i swam.it was really fun.refreshing.ahhhhhhh.but later i ate fattening food.cos no other stall was opened.sighs.yes.i am very pissed.i mean like who wouldnt be.some unknown tagging on your tagboard saying everything a girl like me would hate to see.arghh.that person really got what they wanted by making me pissed.but then i realised that i was just doing myself in if i really let them/she get their/her way.so i am not gonna be pissed anymore cos it aint woth my effort.by the way.isnt that wuzun's pic on my blog?he doesnt seem like a girl.so ya.i think i answered your question.ms noone.anyways.i just studied science.the ecology thing.i remebered my primary school stuffies so it was'nt that hard.phew!fruits are soo refreshing.the watermelonis still in my mouth.sweet!tmrw is a slack day for the first half of the day.eng and then dep free period.i shall do science then.i really shall.i better end this post and go to sleep so i can wake up tmrw.
[-0-]
[if it is really you.this will be the end of everything]
my day today
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Friday, July 06, 2007
9:18:00 PM
i was only in school for one period today.math.so sian.then we went to the studio and we rehearsed.and rehearsed.and rehearsed.there was make up and all.although it was only moustache.i couldnt stand the feeling.it is like a second skin.way too tight.there was like no freedom to move your face freely while wearing make up.i was like the only girl feeling that way.guess it takes times to get used to something hugging your face so tightly.
then we took the bus and reached there shortly after.we went there.did our thing.and left.ok.i shall elaborate more.my juniors were much better on the actual thing than the rehersals.they were SUPER good today.we falterd a little but we picked ourselves and moved on with the show.there were no hiccups.later we went for dep.then i came back home with raj.
slept for 1/2 hour.woke up.watched chinese show.bathed.did math.talked on the phone.blogging now.and shall sleep soon.tired.omg.i was soo fustrated with myself suddenly.i think i just snapped.it had been building though.i didnt snap that bad though.cos she was there
[you know everything.now that you found my blog.i cant write as freely as before but o well.thanks for listening.i hope you liked the little bottle.you said you did.yea.i finally 'xiang tong le'it is not the way i thought it to be.it is something else.its got to do with sister-ness.not that.you know all.i feel weird.you were a pear first.it was uncomfortable.you were not a pear anymore.it was easy.much more easy.now you are a pear again.ahhhhhhh.i did not think that it would be like this.it never ever crossed my mind.never believed this would happened.worst of all.you know.i'll just convince myself that i shall be okay.thanks for listening.thogh you did not know what to do.you tried.best of all.you went with me.thanks.how i wish you are not a pear now.makes things so extremely difficult..........thanks for being ther.here.everywhere.
p.s. you take DAMN long to reply messages....pftttttttttt.
thanks for making me wait for so long when i needed an answer.hahazzz.i mean.hurhur!
always be you so that i can be me.*#* !]
[i got nothing to say cos you i dont think i know you any longer.maybe i do.mabe i dont.i am not sure myself.btw.stop confusing me.]
thanks to she who listens.
the girl has a lot right now...only her angel helps and listens
she knows.cos i told her
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Thursday, July 05, 2007
10:36:00 PM
hey.that is how i like to start.today there was drama rehersal at the real venue itself.the venue is sooo super cool.with the posh seats and all.they did creak alot.but still looked very posh and chic.i liked the floor most of all.it was so smooth.very very fun to slide around.hehez.i enjoyed doing that,hahaz.other than that.i got booked today.for what????late coming?!arghhhh.it was all my fault+ my big mouth.worst of all.my bus ride was sooo unpleasant.and sick.I am not elaborating further.i shall end here.someone made me very happy today.i wonder who?!
[you know about this space now.and everything else.i wonder what you dont know.feels nicer after saying it all out.much more safe yet at the same time dangerous+scary.the feeling is very weird.but since you are you.it makes it much easier.you did not seem surprise though.all that was meant for you not to know.you know.its not suppose to be like that thogh.but i guess.its the unperfects that make the perfect perfect.well.lets just say in a way.since you know of it.i hope you like it.i am sorry i am so obvious.that is just me.i'll remeber this forever.i think i will.it was my first time being the wat i was.i am proud of myself in a way.you made me happy.thanks for making me happy.i like being this happy.thanks for knowing everything.thanks for listening.most of all.thanks for being you.i hope you never ever ever change.things are nice the way it is...thank you]
[no comment.i cant be bothered to comment.there is nothing left to comment.hope you are happy with your fictional characters.you SEEM happy at least.but i think that is only the most thin.feeble.outer.outest.outest.OUTEST layer.i DONT think you are.i am not sure if you know that.]
lala.that is the end.there is competition tmrw.hope we do well.jia you ''seventeen''!!!we can do it!thanks also to those who are supporting us.we'll do our best.nite nite everyone.
special thanks to: ''person waho made me happy''--->ii know that you know who you are:)
:)hehez.just felt like doing that.hahaz!
-me-
lalala
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Tuesday, July 03, 2007
8:22:00 PM
for the first time in my life i went for math remedial.it was quite okay.the ws was on proportion.inverse.and i got everything right except for 1.so pround of myself.yay me!and again for the first time i studied on the bus.science.i cant believe it either.since when did i become soooooooguai.....i guess motivation does REALLY work.at school.i got my notebook confiscated my mdm seah.at least i wasnt talking like SOME other ppl.but like wahtever.she just has this race prob...esp with charu.who is like sooo damn nice.but sadly also gets picked on.and fonda too.mdm seah just cant say her name right.she calls fonda.fiona.dumbbbbbbbbbbbby.
o.todae.kristen became a singaporean and i dont call her kristen any more but
MY FELLOW SINGAPOREAN...sooo funny.hahahahzzzzzz.she laughed too.hehehezzzz.there is dep tmrw.will be rehersing and finishing the script...i think.blur me.tmrw is dhaneesha's bdae.i will remeber to wish her.i must remember.omg.hanis saw me in the math textbook p4.and she laughed.the pics were cute but VERY nerdy.i was much much more of a good girl then...those were the days.but now.they dont exist.an evolution hes EVOLVED?!i dont know how to use chimmmyy words.well.well.i shall eat ms gingerbread tmrw for recess.yea me.i wonder how the match was?i am still wondering...
[ not sure how you are.however you are.you must stay focussed for now.its peak and you cant give up.hope you balance it out too.i cant read your mind so dont expect me to know everything.i hope you like it.i think you will.but i wont find out till the day ot tmrw.i am wondering what your reaction would be,but i hope you like it,i really hope you do.well at least i think i do.but like i said.i am not sure.forgive me for that. i am always like that.ladedadedahhh.enjoy yourself always:)still.i dont know why y=there ids this spot that i have for you in my blog.i am not sure when i will know.i am hoping you will give me an answer.an answer that is not too hard for us to take.i am praying that it is not the worst.it cant happen now.i am sorry for myself.iam not sure if i wany it to either.love.me.God bless.drink lotsa water]
[noy sure what you meant by that,did i go above your expectations?i think i did?you are not the inly one who can do thingd=s in thid=s world.hope you really know that.i will catch up.i am starting.i think i will continue.hope you still stay afloat too.it is still too early to drown.so stay afloat.its fun to at least try.there will be no regrets like this]
love.me.god bless to everyone!
lotsa sherrycherrylove!
i dont know what sort of a title this is....
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Monday, July 02, 2007
5:04:00 PM
went for lit and drama todae.it was just like its sounds.poetic and dramatic.but just a little tooo dramatic.sadly.that was the worst part.the toooo much of drama part.worst of all.my hp blanked out when i was out.pftt...............
it was just me and jas and raj and the others.it was okay.with the exeption of a few silent catfights and eye to eye conversations.it was actually preety mean but o well.it as not sth we could stop....sad life again
i dont know what to blog now so just whatever.gotta revise for science later.ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!
you weren't there.didnt miss you but just wondered what would happen if you saw it.no hard feelings.i hope.not like i really bother but just so everything does not get complicated.and dramatic.sth you love to do.but it is not gonna happen now.at leats not this time.so tooo bad.but whatever
hey.its sad that it is over.but it'll be easier for me now.this way you are free.its now something i can relate to.wanted this before alot alot more.but i am not so sure now.i hope you like that gift.i just thought it was something you would.well i dont know.i just thought it would be perfect.go easy on yourself though you are like the head and all but...give yourself a break.i noe you vant exactly afford to but...just try at least.give a one little shot.i think it will be quite fine.just enjoy it.bit by bit.we'll always me here.at least i'll be here.i am not moving just yet so...you know what to do...I hope you really take things in your stride.i hope you dont feel the impact or the pain.that would be the best for now.please don'f focus too much on it either.not that it is not worth but...just don't hurt yourself further.God bless.I'll be there for you.....
bye.
do you see what i see? wu zun holding 2 kiwies...yay.but i still cant seem to figure out what he is doing....o wellies.all that matters is that he looks hot [as usual...ahhhh...]and kiwies taste super nice and they are good for healt.yays.JASMINE YAP---face it.wuzun is HOT!hahazz.will tag later kkz?byes